#feeling disposable

[maniwakpa]

It has taken me 3 years to settle into a career change and I still pine for my former. I didn't want to change careers; interiors and home design in general are my passions, I feel such grand peace and happiness when I am designing homes. It just became so impossible to find work that wanted to pay me for my work, I had to do something. I decided on IT because I have a rich background in computers and I love helping people, and I really hope I can find a position with a company that values me...but I don't see myself ever not being deeply saddened over how abruptly and unceremoniously I had to leave my life long dream. Maybe I can try again later when I don't need so much money, but damn they really do stifle artists in every corner every chance they get don't they?

[rem-cycle]

Fuck.

[clutchwokeup]

my dad just cancelled on my birthday thru his wife

because he's helping his Favorite Child move to her new house.

He couldn't even tell me himself.

I just wanted to eat pancakes with my dad. Fuck.

[p0dunkpunk]

I want to run away and never come back.

I hate this

[a-lil-bi-furious]

Does anyone else talk to themselves like they’re a therapist because they feel like they have no one to talk to??

yeah me too

worthless and alone

[thegreatdoogzini]

Deep breaths, It was never anything. It was never genuine. It hardly even matters.

[quite-continental]

One day you'll figure it out. That maybe I shouldn't have to be the one to call randomly all the time to hear your voice. Maybe you should call to hear mine. Maybe you'll be the one to suggest a picture. Instead of me feeling like an annoyance. Maybe you realize that a surprise every now and then is nice and I actually love flowers. Maybe you'll miss me first one of these days. I feel like I'm asking a lot but at the same time I'm not. I just want to know you love me and you want me... Only me. In every way. That you want to breathe in our love and exhale pure bliss. Not some exes that gave you more than I can physically but less than what I offer mentally. I need you, but I how do I know you need me.

[floodingtheatmosphere]

honestly though i feel like you really just don't care about our friendship anymore. this is like the 5th time in the last week now we've made plans and you've either just not responded or have blown me off to see your new roommate or ex. do i even matter to you anymore or should i just not bother?