#feeling underappreciated

[cattusvault]

raise your hand if you're the mediocre middle child

[softnocturne]

I feel like if I have to consider taking a break from a friend something’s not right there. I’m not sure if I really should or not but I’m not happy with our relationship right now. I’ not even sure anymore if I want to try to fix it because I’ve been in this kind of toxic relationship before and I don’t think this kind is fixable. Especially when the other person isn’t as invested. 

I feel like I put more effort into it than they do and I feel it’s always about them even when I try to make it about myself. I’ve been in this kind of relationship two times now and I know the damned warning signs. At least it hasn’t been 7 years or 5 like the last ones. 

I just don’t know what to do.  I like roleplaying with them and all that but I feel like they are no longer interested in our stuff. All week it’s been nothing but them and their needs. They’ve also gone back to a supposed relationship with some others they didn’t care for and I’m sorry but I’m not going to pick up the pieces for the 4th time lol. if they want to go back that’s fine with me but I’m done with toxic people and they were pretty toxic people. Hell, she wouldn’t even tell me anymore what’s going on. Just being vague and shit. Well, fuck that. 

It’s why I’ve realized I invest way too much on other people and not on myself. I’m just as important as everyone else yet I don’t feel that way when I’m with people. My self-esteem has been pretty much destroyed over the past couple of years. It’s not like the snarky bitchy attitude that’s popped up has been helping my decision. I’m not going to make myself sick over this. 

[streamlass]

I have baked my first apple pie of the season. Though I say so myself, it is a lovely one. The crust is flaky, the egg wash browned nicely, & the filling (the bit that leaked out) is tasty.

It's for church tomorrow. No one is going to appreciate it like it deserves. Sigh...

[zepppeeelll]

update

The Alumuno Pokémon will be on hiatus til September. This is mainly because I lost interest. There are also times where I feel like nobody really cares about it and my passion barely gets noticed outside a few likes and reblogs. I’ll try to regain interest. If there’s anyone who actually cared for this, thanks.

[ninjatantei]

Totally feeling underappreciated. I work at a daycare and it was Teacher Appreciation Week (usually it’s on the first Tuesday of May). I did not get anything from any of the parents or kids from the classroom I am normally in. I really don’t care that I did not get candy or gift cards or anything like that. I just would have really liked a thank you card. So, if you have kids, please always get their teacher a card at least. They would greatly appreciate it, especially a handmade card. I know I would.

[matterconcern-blog]

New Post has been published on Matter Concern

New Post has been published on https://matterconcern.com/2017/01/13/how-to-stop-being-a-martyr/

How To Stop Being A Martyr

If you’re chronically overextended, underappreciated, and very, very angry, there’s a simple solution: Stop playing the martyr.

[sequencefairy]

Tfw you are passed over for the hundredth time.

[upstartly]

So i saw a post just now about how dA isnt evil or whatever and how its not stealing your art and... I dont really care Im not saying in a mean way i just I wasnt getting anything out of that site I had like 7 followers and mostly those were pity follows I was posting my art every week and getting 100 views and 25 likes on every piece but that was it I wasnt getting remembered I wasnt getting any nice messages It was more disheartening than getting 2 likes (if im lucky) on the art i post on this site Cause on dA people were essentially going 'oh wow nice art.' And then forgetting about it. They didnt care if i made other stuff or whatever. And it feels kinda shitty. Here i get nothing but not being seen is different to being discarded. So im not going back to dA. Im just gonna continue being a nobody on one site instead of two.