#feeling watched

[hashbrowne08]

IM SCREAMING

CRYING

VOMITING

THIS EPISODE WHAT THE HELL

Spoilers ahead for the Magnus protocol 26

AHHHHHHHHHHH OMG ARCHIVIST

AND A JARED

AND HELEN?????

FUCKING HELEN???? AND SHES STILL DOING HOME SELLING?

I'm not posting this till I finish the ep so this will be weird and rambley

Ohmygod Helens laugh, I haven't heard anything laugh like that in a while

Hah baby tory

CELIA FEELS LIKE SHES BEING WATCHED

AHHHHHHHHH

It's eleven at night on a Thursday, I'm going to sleep

[mirror-dreams-become-lucid]

It's quiet in the gardens...

There wasn't a word spoken here. While the buzz from the lightbulbs could usually be heard, here, the lights did not shine.

Instead, it was dark. Not through sabotage or faulty wiring, nor did it feel suffocating or dangerous.

No, the darkness here felt... soothing. As though you could scream your heart out into it and it would wipe away all that ails you. This darkness was welcoming, and kind.

Yet as you wander, you know deep down someone else is here. Your hand knocks softly into something, a lamp resting neatly on the shelf. feeling around, you flick it on.

"Oh," Lucid mumbled. "So sorry, I didn't know you were going to turn that on. I would've warned you I was here."

[arcanefallowcottonbranch]

The thought of being watched or hunted isn't pleasing.

[furiousgoldfish]

Do you all also constantly observe yourselves from the outside in your head? Thinking 'If someone was looking at me right now how would they perceive me? What would they think?'

It could be trauma specific thing because our parents wanted us to always feel like we're under surveillance and harshly judged for our every move, even when they're not around, based on the worst possible interpretation. Are you always anxious because some invisible all-seeing entity might be interpreting your actions as worthy of punishment?

[danskjavlarna]

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Are we being watched? Our surveillance society, then as now.

[tjandersonart]

can’t be all bad right? 

[thetruthlsoutthere]

Weird Things Happening Again - Summary

Around 9:04 p.m last night, the day of Tuesday May 28.2019 ? I had been in my living room on my desktop computer and right by it is the big living room windows. Well I was talking to @searchingforthedoctor when I had heard a clatter like something hitting against another thing. Hearing it at the windows, I assumed something clattered against it. A few moments later, seconds really, when I went to go up and look, I didn't see anyone outside, nor did I see what had caused the clatter as it would have fallen into the grass under the windows anyway. It was getting dark out but not too dark out that you couldn't see out at all and I didn't see anyone.

It couldn't have been my mom as she had been in her room by this point and even if she had been outside, which she wasn't wouldn't I have seen her car?? also , it wasn't the cat as we never let him outside. Plus, I am pretty sure a cat doesn't have the ability to throw something, like a human, at a window , especially deliberately. So I wonder what caused the clatter, who did it and why.  So I went to sit back down at my desktop and be on it ofc.

Then this morning, I am at Burger King before I go to work so I can clock in and obviously, do my job. I was still talking to @searchingforthedoctor but this is when really weird stuff happened. This day which is today, is the date of Wednesday May 29, 2019. Happened around 9:20 something to at the least 10:30 so that's a good bit of time. Now I say before hand that while yes, my house is haunted... NOTHING has followed me before, suddenly deciding it wanted to fuck my internet up and attach itself to my laptop because how my laptop acted up, it had never done so before, save for one thing I will get into. But each time we would talk about telling things about this belief, anything we experienced, etc? Its like every time I sent a message / replied to her, all of the following happened:

a) only the tumblr site would act up even though the wifi was always acting fine and there was no bad weather to cause it to mess up and my laptop has no problems with it

b) moments of me apparently being offline and not showing mine and @searchingforthedoctor's messages with each other even though I was so clearly online and its like I was able to do other things but not communicate with her.

c) the messages that would be bright to see the words you type, would seem to fade out/ get less bright. && even though it would seem like messages got through and did, suddenly I would end up seeing them like they have to be retried on sending??

d) you have to go into your browser settings to zoom your screen, there is no button for that but I didn't go into my settings and my tumblr screen decides it wasn't to zoom up so high , I pretty much only see @searchingforthedoctor's green dot with 'active within the last hour' next to it. Go to tell her and suddenly , its like the tumblr site cannot be reached, that blank page you see with that writing? Wifi malfunctioned for a second like it was disconnecting but its weird because it had been doing this before disconnecting at all and for the majority of the time, it hasn't.

e) when I would get messages from @searchingforthedoctor and the blog who sent the demon submission ? its like whenever I get the notif to any messages they send and I go to look at them, they are suddenly gone??

F) same thing that happened but when having a conversation with the blog who sent the demon submission, I get notifs for messages, look to see them, suddenly gone. Go to tell @searchingforthedoctor and suddenly message disappears like I never sent it to her.

 Then over the past 2 days ish {27 & 28 or 26 & 27}, I get weird messages each from 2 different blogs who don't have much telling about their blogs / anything about them but seem very interested in mine and what I post and still haven't answered my question of who they are. Like , you could say its a random person trying to mess with me or one of those bots but wouldn't that have happened earlier? why only now? Plus do bots give messages like they sent me so strange with how its worded and life to it in a way but the way it is makes me feel weird.

Also today on the 29th, on my way home from work ; I was keeping an eye out as well as an ear for the Tardis because I want to always see and hear it whenever I get the chance but I saw what could have looked like a Tardis in the woods by open fields due to its box like and blue structure. Why would something like that be in the woods?

About a week ish ago, not even  but also : I had seen what looked like a platform with possible railings on each side and a poll like thing that was extended outward ; at the tree line of woods in an open field when you look straight out. Why would those be there and what for??

Also today on the 29th, in front of my job on the road in front, I saw a white car just parked on one side of the road. This road that faces the entrance to my job and it was just sitting there , I never saw anyone get out. I thought I saw someone in the grass on one side of the car, looking like they were sweeping but no one sweeps the grass so who was it? why were they there? Was I being watched?

over the past few days , not even a week : I had also gotten a few silent calls again - 2 ish pretty much. Once again silence on the other end, never speaks, hangs up after a bit even when I say who is there but no one ever answers. Always makes me feel weird bc I don't give my number out.

ALSO , I am wanting to write notes again : to the Doctor, Master, Torchwood / Jack, UNIT, maybe River too and Ashildor / Lady Me, etc. I want to write to the Doctor most as he is the one I have wrote to most and is the one I want to most see notes.

save for taking a moment to still look out at the sky tonight because its been a bit since I last had ; It was completely starless but the more I focused. I kept seeing this white flash moving slowly through the sky upward then from one side to another. Could be nothing obviously but worthy to mention I guess.

 I THINK that is it. Thoughts on any / all of this??