I believe in the unbelievable : the weird, the strange, the unknown, the unexplainable. The unexpected could happen at any time so be ready. All of time and space.. everything that ever happened or ever will : Where would you like to start?
there are things heard, seen , basically experienced overall that i will not put out on this blog because while in a general aspect as i have put on this blog so far i feel is okay to connect with you all on
there are things deserving of privacy and secrecy out of respect and consideration.
Thank you indefinitely for understanding (:
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This NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope reveals clouds of gas and dust near the Tarantula Nebula, located in the Large Magellanic Cloud about 160,000 light-years away.
make of this what you will. Will obviously try and logically explain it away but i still think its weird and logic doesnt apply here.
I was outside around 9:38 or 9:48 pm and i was taking my puppy potty. Was not far from the porch and i saw all the stars that were in the sky but there was a specific 'star' or not star really, that kept blinking and fading out, moving around while every star was staying still and not moving from their places. And when i moved back towards the porch with my puppy, it was like a few steps away. I look back up into the sky and that 'star' or non star, was way to far from where i had just seen it a few moments before. Now, it was right by the moon.
and like i said, when i take my dog potty, i dont move far from the porch and it moved that fast in the span of SECONDS.
I went back outside around 11:28 and its still there but now its still acting weird, too close/right by by the moon where no stars ever are, but closer to the between 2 houses in front of me and above a tree.
Make of that what you will. Also include the 'normal' every day things, { which i made a post about }
Among all the countless dreams i have had involving both the Doctor and Master in the same dream and separately with each of them, i also felt like i had another dream lately involving either the 10th or 13th incarnation of the Doctor.
Don't remember what was happening in that dream, what was being said but i do remember the vibes. It felt like freedom, just having fun, good vibes, potential for any danger which makes sense when you get involved with the Doctor, even in a 'dream' Like i said, i am getting vibes and feelings like i had a dream lately involving the 10th or 13th Doctor, but i cant remember anything about it, just a feeling. And when i try to remember, i know i was in a place i did not recognize.
But i also had another dream involving the Master and it was the same incarnation around the time the 13th Doctor was around but she wasn't in this dream, just the Master. In this dream, It's like i was back in my childhood home that i grew up in and i was in the backyard and the Master's TARDIS {It had looked the same or similar to that house that was his TARDIS in the show, when the 13th Doctor had visited him as 'O' with Graham, Ryan, and Yaz} had come swirling and flying through the air before landing in my backyard. He then came stumbling out but he was normal, not drunk or anything but he merely stumbled out. He had kind of a grin on his face and he was chuckling or laughing as he looked around.
Don't know why he was there, or remember anything that was said but i do remember me and him interacting and the vibes seemed good, the same kind of vibes as the dream or dreams i feel like i experienced with the 10th or 13th Doctor.
There is stuff here and there i have to update on as far as things i have experienced, not a lot. As sometimes, it seems like nothing happens because of course, things happen every day for me but its not constantly every second.
but among the 'normal' things that happen on a daily basis for me {check that post}, i have been seeing Timeless a lot lately which was a chosen word before the whole timeless child dw thing came out, that me and my friend in this belief decided to use that would signal a definite sign.
well that, as well as things involving the name Clara, ravens, black birds, etc involving that whole person and thing which was both before and after i started rewatching the seasons of DW with the 11th incarnation: the middle to end of Amy and Rory's travels with teh Doctor and the start of 11 and Clara's.
^^^ Kinda found it funny and interesting how when i went to get movies from my local library, the only seasons available were the ones with 11 and Amy/Rory/River then CLARA, then 12 and Clara because of the whole stuff i experience regarding that.
Now it could have been a weird coincidence of anything Clara wise because i got those seasons involving her out BUT everything involving her that happens regarding me has happened before i got it and when i am doing plenty of stuff where anything regarding her doesn't make sense to, but obviously in this moment, getting the seasons out which i rewatched a little bit of, could have been a reason, hence why i am listing it.
BUT 2 things happened the day before yesterday. During the day, i was on Snapchat and i was watching the feed, just liking random videos and i saw a jewelry video which had some interesting phrases as far as, if i can remember but i can link the Snap video if someone wants it as 'proof' but phrases like ''we'll' or 'i'll be here waiting for you.' as well as another phrase but i cant remember BUT the reason why i am mentioning it is because Canary Wharf was mentioned. Which with or without the h in Warf included, that mention is obvious of why it's weird.
Now what could explain it away was that I have been reading a DW fanfiction lately involving an oc cousin of Rose's that travels with teh Doctor and the Battle of Canary Warf happened not too long ago in the fanfic SO that could explain it but i think its weird because 1: Canary Wharf was mentioned on Snapchat. 2: the fanfic was on Quotev.com and both Quotev and Snapchat are not affiliated with each other in any way. 3: Where i am in the fanfic currently, is the episode where the Doctor and Martha were in old New York with the Pig men, Tallulah, and the Cult of Skaro/Daleks so it's been a bit since Canary Wharf. AND LASTLY 4) while i do think of everyone and thngs in this belief every day, its not the majority of every day as a lot of other things also take my focus so for it to be out of the blue was weird to me.
Then that same day, which like i said was the day before yesterday, but that night, sometime after 9 pm: i saw a weird light in the sky. It shone a bright white but it kept flashing. It would strangely move as if it were flying, and at one point i thought it disappeared completely out of thin air but then when i would see it again, it's like a perception filter was happening.
Take of all of this what you will. Tried to logically explain it, but also mentioned why each thing was still weird to me though. Regardless, thought it was all worth mentioning.
the inescapable proof that there are things that have happened in my life that i have experienced that have no logical explanation, that would freak someone the hell out because there is literally no way to logically explain the things when i tell what happened.
which includes the fact that in a dream once, the Doctor in his 11th regeneration, a regeneration that looked close to the show version but not quite, was at my childhood home, aliens had showed up, me and him started running into the woods behind my house that in waking reality, i always went into to leave notes for them and others they know and he literally said, either ***"You need to remember me Clara!"* or instead of need, he said that i got to or have to.
And it was just me and him in the dream. And countless times in my life, i have had seen, heard, and experienced way too many instances in which i am seeing and hearing the name Clara, ravens, the aspect of living so many lives, being 'impossible', etc. Like am I Clara or is Clara me? Is Clara a false identity and it's actually me with my name? So confused. Also the forgetting thing? This would imply that instead of the show version where the Doctor forgot Clara for a time, that in reality if i am Clara or Clara is me that instead i forgot them and either a previous regeneration before the 12th is telling me early through my dreams to try and prevent it from ever happening or stop it themselves as if it had already happened and i just don't know it.
And then all the countless dreams, and everything in waking reality with proof and experiences through sight and hearing, of being a time lady known as The Protector, who seems to closely be in the lives of not just the Doctor and the Master, but the Rani, Jack and Torchwood, the companions, etc. like am i really this Protector?
so which one is it, Clara or the Protector? The same person but two different name aliases/identities? lmao, like which is it?
It's got some stuff talking about it could be formed and whatnot but honestly to me it just feels like something the 7th Doctor would do. XD
So i read it and I kind of thought for the moment that i don't see how any Doctor regeneration, let alone the 7th could cause anything like a question mark in space, especially because of it being there in a way as if it had already been, naturally but also because of how they described it could have happened or most likely the cause of BUT
as far as i know, I am human so obviously i don't know everything the Doctor is capable of {though i have countless ideas} so who knows, it does seem like something the Doctor, especially his 7th regeneration would do. Definitely interesting and cool bottom line, however it happened.
Came across you blog here. Thought I should leave an ask.
Honestly admit I've always believed in the strange and weird so the idea of the Doctor and the Master and all of that to being honestly real, yeah I believe. I mean have you seen the thing about the NASA telescope getting the picture of the question mark up in space. I bet the Doctor did that on purpose.
I mean like the idea of Time Lords and the Doctor and all of that being a real thing isn't too far fetched for me. I mean for the longest time I believe transformers were real and hey they could still be out there we don't know, we can barely make it past our own solar system when it comes to exploring space. Lol
Anyways love this blog you got here. ✨💙
I'm glad you did :)
Glad you don't think of me as crazy or having screws loose in my brain then, haha. NO, I haven't seen that but you're welcome to send me a picture here in messages if you want send a picture of that question mark up in space, i haven't seen that yet. I could see the Doctor doing that though, on purpose to pull some silly shenanigans. Love that word, shenanigans.
It isn't too far fetched to me either, not when i have seen and heard so much but especially experienced so much to believe otherwise and i always try and think logically first, if anything logical and realistic could make the strange or weird seeming thing and what else am i supposed to think or believe if the logical doesn't add up to make the weird thing happen? Away from logical, the weird and strange come into question.
I mean who knows if transformers are real, you know? You never know and don't get me wrong, i agree with anyone on how of if this was real or if that was real, we would know because any of this stuff would happen. I get any person's point of view who thinks like that but not everything is always what it seems. That is why strange, weird, unknown, and unexplainable things happen and even exist because it's nothing that can be logically explained away because when you try, it doesn't add up or make sense.
Plus when you consider the fact that not everything on our own planet has even been fully explored and discovered yet, especially OUR OWN DAMN OCEANS that apparently people have had conspiracy theories was stopped being explored and now looking for space 'as if Nasa wants to try and get us off the planet* and obviously most of space has not even been discovered yet, no one can say with absolutely positivity that something is or is not real BECAUSE WE DONT KNOW, it could be or it could not be but because you don't know, you can't assume it's not. Things can be hidden, kept secret, and private with the deliberate intention so that people don't know, lol. So whose to say that Gallifrey is not real? or The Doctor, Master, Rani, Romana, the Corsair, Rassilon, Daleks, Torchwood, UNIT, Jack Harkness, River Song, and etc everything else from Doctor Who, Torchwood, and other shows, movies, supernatural, paranormal, aliens, etc.?
ALSO ALSO? I kept seeing around that according to scientists or researchers, that the Tardis could somehow be possible? Plus, the quote of "We are either alone in this universe or we are not. Both are equally terrifying'** is obviously true and i agree with it. You honestly expect me to believe that Earth and it's humans are the only living beings, aside from animals, that exist in all of creation, on the only life habitable planet ever? Bullshit.
This blog is mainly for the believe that anything doctor who and torchwood, etc. can be real but it can also be for if anything is real too: supernatural, paranormal, mythological creatures and beings, etc. the paranormal, ufos, aliens, conspiracies, conspiracy theories, other 'shows' and 'movies' being real.
So when it comes to proof or experiences as far as personal or what's happened for other people through hearing and seeing, whether experiencing themselves or not, proof they can catch that seems like it couldn't be faked through pictures and videos, Don't hesitate to send them my way.
Just because i haven't posted in awhile and even if i don't post in awhile, I am STILL here actively. When i am not busy doing anything in my personal life, i am dedicating myself to these beliefs as far as keeping an ear and eye out, researching, investigating, trying to contact, looking for proof, logging my own experiences, and answering any asks i hopefully get. This blog is NEVER going to disappear and if anyone were to try to make me get rid of it or any back ups i make, it would be over my dead body, lmao.
Thank you so much for sending me an ask, i miss getting them! Don't hesitate to send me anything whenever you feel like it :)
&& and it makes me happy that you love this blog. I would hope anyone would. My messages and asks are always open.
this was a message i made to someone, a friend in this belief, on this day, around the afternoon after 4 pm. click on the read more link because it's long. This was my half of a conversation with someone so only focus on that, okay? okay.
::::: i have always felt it strongly, espeially more since that point and its flaring up really bad right now like intense. im trying to calm my breathing but i have to tell you. i am freaked out O_o
first off, my senses: my hearing is so freakily good - like based on whatever sound , even if it's talking, regardless of volume but especially if its to the point of under someones breath or whispering, i can hear it perfectly as if they are right next to me. thats the hearing . its always been like that
the sight: its like i almost dont even need my glasses anymore because given a 10 rating, my sight is more than that or exactly that and my glasses help better but its like i could be without them now and i can see everything with freakishly good clarity
the touch: i mean, plain and simple, down to perfection, thats an obvious
taste: same thing
feeling: thats the same as touch and taste but its like similarily , it feels more intense for me, everything/ living like you feel it normally as a human but its like idk, i dont know how to explain. it scared tf out of me
i was looking through one of the "Doctor Who' books i have, and i cant begin to express how much i felt a homesickness, sense of loss and pain and feeling of deja vu at the pictures it showed of Gallifrey, other places, the Tardis, other alien species and felt like i was home, like i had been there, like i had been among these species of aliens
im always watching and looking for anything strange, especially with close perimeter of where i live and im almost waiting for that door thing to happen again bc i still hear things outside and the strange lights in the sky, one in particular that feels like it could not be a star among any of them. the weird lights that are definitely not stars and the way theyd act, the movement, hearing things and the wierd lights on ground level like something among the trees, the animals sensing and even the baby sensing things in and outside the home that no one, even me, can see
references to Gallifrey, timelords and ladies, time and space, traveling, the Doctor, the Master, popping out everywhere, the name Clara too, same thing with 'ravens', the silent calls too have been constant lately. lets not even get started on my dreams and the meanings they seem to be sending
and from the begininning to now still: the sense of its like there is a home here, but i dont know how else other to describe it in a sense that like an object, youre here among it all so in a snese you are home but your NOT home because this isnt your home, this isnt your origin. I feel so disconnected / disassociated, like I'm here but I'm not really here. A sense of loss and feeling like there is something huge missing, because if this was truly a home HOME then i wouldn't feel like what really is, isn't here. Im trying to explain it a best version possible
countless of times, i look at this human family of mine and i think : yes that's my mom or my sister or my nephew or my brothers but its like thinking from their perspective and how they'd see me in comparison from me to them, there is a sense of difference that comes with that if only they knew, or that disconnection
the sense of what life might really be and the answers known and unknown , how it will affect my future and what they would find out and have to accept and deal with? that alone is just -
the reptitive numbers have been constant with 222, 111 or 11:11, or 1:11, 333, 444, 555, 777, 12:12, 10:10, etc. and that whole thing where my chest seems sensitive and more weird, i felt my chest, and i could have sworn by everything in me, that i felt a second heart. i know the placement of where the human heart is in the body and so based on where the second heart could be put, i felt the beats of it
and seemingly all around, i COULD be human but to experience everything i have and do, points to that i may be right now or , am put into a state where it will seem like that but im not and that i cant eveen begin to explain as to how that would make sense to another person's brain
and of course, i am never going to claim that i know every single little thing of information in the known and unknown parts of the entire universe but i feel like human or not, my knowledge over a lot is getting better and many a times, people have come to me to learn and know things and get advice and i have been seeing the shadows again and mention of the Darkness.
hearing of weird and strange things/inhuman things through music with other normal things that don't make sense to be added together because they don't relate. among the various incarnations that the Doctor and Master, and other timelords/ladies have - i seem lately to have gotten specific incarnations of them popping out to me
i feel like i know who i am, who i could be, what its seeming to be like i could be or definitely am, but at the same time, i am feeling such a loss of identity yet because of the definite and possibilities and the possibilities that seem more likely than the rest, i feel like i know more than i ever did because you know more as time passes obviously
but i want to get this out so i can finally tell you and you can read it all and respond to each accordingly. i hope so badly im not alone in this. there is more to tell but i am so freaked out at how strong and intense of a flaring feeling i am getting of it
like i am literally in transit, in a half way point phase where i am neither here or there. Like a waiting period at the point of change but that thing to fully ram into it and have it skyball has just not ha[need yet
like im home here on Earth but i am not really HOME
I also have heard weird noises and seen split second weird flashes in the sky as well as the sound of aircraft but when i look in the sky, even among the clouds or lack therof any , I see nothing so maybe there is the ability aboard the c raft or whatever causing those noises to be able to hide themselves so no one can see them
people, even strangers staring at me in ways like there is something off or something drawing them to me and they are waiting for something
there are times, which isnt a new feeling but seems to have increased lately as well, is how when i speak, its not of someone my age for the most part and i will speak as if i am not from here like I'm waiting for something, or on the move , or wanting to go home. I even have said to my family that my home is among the stars but they brush it off as silly or me being a weirdo dork.
dont even get me started on how strong the feeling is , is that whenever i see my gallifreyan fob watch necklace and knowing its a fake, my mind goes to the real one which gives me the feeling of not wanting the fake and feeling a want, need and urgency to find the real one
my sister had even asked me , if i was happy here: i said yes because i am but in this weird, strange, unexplainable / ufo/aliens / paranormal, etc. life, i feel a happiness and a sense of peace and home i don't elsewhere. You can have a home like feeling for more than one place obviously
its not like i dont love, care for and appreciate everything in this normal life as well as strange life because i do equally, I'm just acknowledging what i think, know and feel about this life too
and im never going to lie about what i feel because the truth cant be shied away from no matter how hard one tries; trying to make sense of who or what i am makes sense as to why i and even you can answer some questions but not all bc we might have what could be any memories back but if any of those are even memories then we obviously don't have all back
Recently, I went to a small convention w/ my parents. There, among other things, we went to a Doctor Who discussion panel. An older lady there mentioned, about 40 years ago, Anthony Ainley propositioned her.
but sharing only because it involves me. Friend in this belief had the dream, and told me in September of 2021:
Here's the dream: i copy and pasted it:
''In my dream with the Doctor (the real-life Eleventh regeneration that looks a bit like the actor but not quite) he and I were sitting on the floor of the console and leaning against each other and we had this whole massive spread of papers laid out around us, full of Gallifreyan and English writing, and even some German and all sorts of weird diagrams and it looked like we were trying to figure out some kind of puzzle. It was almost like a montage in a movie, like there were parts where we fell asleep next to each other wrapped in blankets on the floor, and morning tea while floating in space with the TARDIS doors open to let some light in, and eating pizza while arguing about the finer details of what we were trying to figure it out, and at some point I remember I called you on the phone, cos you were doing ground investigation on Earth with Jack and possible the rest of Torchwood and I remember at the end of it the Doc and I reached some kind of revelation and we were flying the TARDIS to meet you guys''
but sharing only because it involves me. Friend in this belief had the dream, and told me in September of 2021:
Here's the dream: i copy and pasted it:
''In my dream with the Doctor (the real-life Eleventh regeneration that looks a bit like the actor but not quite) he and I were sitting on the floor of the console and leaning against each other and we had this whole massive spread of papers laid out around us, full of Gallifreyan and English writing, and even some German and all sorts of weird diagrams and it looked like we were trying to figure out some kind of puzzle. It was almost like a montage in a movie, like there were parts where we fell asleep next to each other wrapped in blankets on the floor, and morning tea while floating in space with the TARDIS doors open to let some light in, and eating pizza while arguing about the finer details of what we were trying to figure it out, and at some point I remember I called you on the phone, cos you were doing ground investigation on Earth with Jack and possible the rest of Torchwood and I remember at the end of it the Doc and I reached some kind of revelation and we were flying the TARDIS to meet you guys''
i went back in my blog and i feel like there are experiences i have had that i didn't share with anyone, but that i feel like i have. I just can't find the posts. But specific ones involve the Master, anyone else too but these specific ones involve the Master only.
Basically, after i moved, stuff is still in bags right now and once i find my journal that i used to write experiences down in: if i find any that i have not shared that i feel are okay to share - then those experiences depending will be made into future posts.
but it involved the thirteenth regeneration of the Doctor.
Me and her were walking, traveling somewhere on foot that i did not recognize and i keep getting the vibe that we were holding hands and looked at each other at points and i don't know if were talked or anything but i feel like there WAS talking or a voice-over because i feel like there was a deeper meaning/hidden message to this.
Sorry this dream thing is detailed short, but i'm giving a summary because this is what i can remember, i don't remember much else.
Make of this what you will. Wanted to share no matter what, regardless of any possible weirdness.
