#feelings!!!!!

[frominez]

the most beautiful girl in the whole world has been my gf for six months now and i’m still not sure how i got so lucky @robin-buckleys

[ipromiseiwilltakeyouthere]

I miss my girlfriend so much. I wish I could see her already. I’ve resorted to hugging my pillow to sleep. I don’t want to tell her I’ve fallen sleep crying the last few nights. I just love her a lot.

[fiddleabout]

HELLO HELLO can i ask, given how much i loved your Best Albums of 2018 post, what your favorite lyrics of 2018 were? favorite hooks? favorite son?

aw shit man this is like.  my favorite ask of the entirety of 2018.  i am seven drinks in so buckle in son you’re up for a ride now:

im gonna go out on a limb and guess you meant favorite song so to start with that, here, have five:

carly rae jepsen, party for one

batfangs, boy of summer

boygenius, me and my dog

mitski, pink in the night

torres, two of anything

FAVORITE HOOKS:

look, in a year where our lord and savior carly rae jepsen releases a song, you know it’s going to win this, but to be clear: that xylophone intro to party for one is magnificent, just try and fight me on it

also: haunted house by sir babygirl is like one bigass hook translated into a hundred-yard spring through an active car wash of high school gayness. so.  solid second place.

ALSO:

FAVORITE LYRICS:

crashing cars on icy feelings / keep my friends safe now and always* (lala lala, when you die)

maybe we’re a fault line ready to break (twin shadow, saturdays)

controversy set on a field of bright colors (kitten, pink champagne)

but the loneliness never left me / i always took it with me / but i can put it down in the pleasure of your company (florence and the machine, no choir)

ineed something bigger than the sky / hold it in my arms and know it’s mine (mitski, remember my name)

i dreamed of a life so big and tall (years & years, up in flames)

weren’t you trying forgiveness and weren’t you trying to stay? / weren’t you trying to look up and weren’t you trying to pray?** (chvrches, never say die)

you look out the window while i look at you / sayin i don’t know would be like saying that the sky ain’t blue / and boots weren’t made for sitting by the door / since you don’t wanna stay anymore (kacey musgraves, space cowboy)

my heart could break for a one-legged seagull / and still afford nothing to you (neko case, bad luck)

i wanna be emaciated / i wanna hear one song without thinking of you i wish i was on a spaceship / just me and my dog and an impossible view  (boygenius, me and my dog)

you are your mother’s child / you’re a mother of a mother of a mother now / raised in the age of the milkman i can’t claim to understand  (lucy dacus, pillar of truth)

and while the trees drop all their leaves / i’ll see you in every animal (half waif, every animal specifically because of the way she says e-ver-ee aaaaanimal and then that guitar picks back up okay in case you were wondering ANYWAYS ONWARDS)

cos it’s you that i’m thinking of / as i fall into the sun (hatchie, adored)

i used to love you like the world would end / i used to love you like a child*** (mipso, people change)

i like the way your brain works / i like the way you try / to run with the wolfpack when your hand are tied**** (the wombats, turn)

hold on, don’t fight your war alone / hang around, you don’t have to face it on your own (janelle monae, americans)

we’ll talk until morning hits the windshield (soccer mommy, scorpio rising)

gun shaped bottle in a loaded tongue / jesus ain’t the problem but he started one (st. paul and the broken bones, gotitbad)

AND THE FINAL CROWNING JEWEL:

i don’t hang with these bitches cos these bitches be corny / i got enough bras ya ain’t gotta support me (cardi b, get up 10)

*the internet tells me it’s freeways not feelings but you can’t take this away from me

**i wrote sixteen thousand words of fic about these two lines and i regret every emotion it gave me

***i wrote a truly outlandish number of words in a day because of this line

****one day i’m going to write 100k about alex danvers in the context of this line and i’m going to hate every second of it

[embracingwild]

so many feelings!!!!!

-nervous about hearing back from grad schools - i am becoming a better advocate for myself so that’s pretty cool -i can feel friends slipping away (boys, moving, etc,) and it’s so hard. i want more friends or more contact with the ones i have?? - sean moves to the other side of the world in six days and if i think about it i start crying so that’s going well folks - trying to do more to take care of myself the way I wish my mom would have and it’s really hard to do but it’s about time i do it - my research advisors are still the best people ever and i love them -family is not biological. don’t forget that - no matter what I’M GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL IN AUGUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - donald trump is still a moldy orange skittle and i’m not happy about it - i’m flying to ONTARIO (i.e. london) next week?? for two days??? so stoked if you live there pls tell me what to see/do

[evilshrimp]

[artsy-calathea]

Little vent piece bc I feel so weighted by my genetics today.

Elaboration!!!!

I feel so limited to what my family has been, I feel like I'm just an amalgamation of their experiences and feelings and duties that sometimes I can't even remember who I really am. Especially when people judge me by how my family handles themselves, because I know I can be so much more than what they make me seem like.

[x-empire-of-emotions-x]

I’m giving up with the idea of you ever coming back to me now, I still love you but I just want my money and to move on, even if it is still hard😔