#feelings.pdf

[ask-the-ex-hyperionintern]

It’s terrifying. Watching someone that strong, that big just...fall to the floor like that. A loud thud that was heard even through the camera feed. Still. Unmoving.

[ask-the-ex-hyperionintern]

I never realized how much I’d look back on those moments with fondness; when it was just us three huddled in a room together, planning to escape.

[ask-the-ex-hyperionintern]

Its daunting, standing at the edge of that void in my head.

Will I ever know anything more?

[ask-the-ex-hyperionintern]

I told you who I was from the very beginning. It was YOU who didn’t listen, hell, you never listened; cuz hey, who gves a fuck about what an intern has to say, right? Fuck ‘em.

[ask-the-ex-hyperionintern]

If something happens to Kelley, that’s bad; but if something happens to either of you...!

...I am not...a protector. I cannot protect you from shit out here; I can barely protect myself.

Kelley can dig themself out of trouble; they know how, they know so much about survival and how to fight their way out of bad situations.

You? We? Us??? We don’t know jack fucking shit.

[ask-the-ex-hyperionintern]

...I don’t care about much in this world.

I can’t protect the few people I care about.

...but you can.

[ask-the-ex-hyperionintern]

You’re my friends. But there’s a bad part of my brain, and it only wants to think that the moment I hand you everything you’re gonna stab me in the back.

I don’t like being like this...

[ask-the-ex-hyperionintern]

...Look. I don’t say this like this often, so listen up.

You didn’t deserve it ok? You didn’t deserve to hurt. You didn’t deserve to be lied to. You didn’t deserve to be scarred like that...

It’s not your fault ok? Why blame yourself when you can blame the fucker who did it to you?