So I hung out with my best friend last night and we stayed up all night and talked about everything. She asked if I had a tumblr girl, I laughed. I said well there are thousands of tumblr girls out there and I just haven't quite met mine yet. She asked if it was easy to talk to girls because when I was in denial and dating guys, I always said how easy they are to talk to. I said you know, it's really not bcs when I talk to a really fucking cute girl, I get so many butterflies,so many doubts, so much anxiety, and so many more feels... Guys were only easy to talk to bcs I basically felt like a "bro" and I could just relate to them with certain things. I've only had really bad anxiety and feels talking to this one extremely special girl, we instantly clicked and I could totally imagine a future with her..... But I fucked everything up bcs we both live kinda far away(Ohio and Texas) and I was afraid of getting too close, we quit talking for a little while and once I was about to text her I saw that she was happily taken. Was I mad? Not at all I was extremely happy for her bcs she deserves someone great in her life. Sometimes I regret taking a break in talking, bcs I could have her as that special someone in my life... Talking to her was the most amazing experience in my life, she boosted my confidence so much that I ended up coming out to 2 of my friends and my brother. I will never forget her or the experience that I had talking with her.
