Crossing Over
For @flashfictionfridayofficial’s prompt: “Sink or Swim”
Consider it the fifth installment of the lighthouse keeper shorts.
Rating: Mature
CW: peril, drowning
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I meant nothing to the sea.
Humans were supposed to be more buoyant in water.
No one filled the open ocean in on that fact.
I told them we should have headed home long before the sun set — we had time to get back then, and we still had time when I told them again, and again, and then... and then the fog rolled in. The sun dipped below the far-off rocks we thought belonged the little fishing village from which we'd left. We could just keep sailing forward, they told me. Eventually we would be home, but until then, why not kick back, enjoy the trip for once.
How enjoyable is the trip now, James, I thought, with your dad's expensive sailboat in pieces and the tide ripping us one-by-one away from the sharp rocks that turned out not to be the fucking fishing village?
I held out the longest. My boyfriend and his idiot friends probably would have attributed it to how high strung I was, but it was more likely because I was the only one who hadn't been drinking. There was only so much of a beating I could take from the waves, and undertow I could resist, and cold I could try to shiver away. None of the lighthearted surfing movies I grew up on made drowning seem quite as terrifying as it really was. It burned — my lungs, my throat, my nose, the cuts and scrapes all over my body, everywhere the water went, it brought the stinging salt with it. I wondered after a while of clinging to that rock if it would be the lack of oxygen, the physical exhaustion, or just plain bleeding out that would finally sap the last of my strength.
(Spoiler: it was all three, plus a heaping side of crushing anxiety and a deep, dark sadness that AP English and a perfect GPA and burning myself out with extracurriculars and one last semester at Harvard meant nothing to the sea. I meant nothing to the sea.)
It tore me right off that rock and swallowed me whole, tossing and turning my body like a rag doll caught in the spin cycle. Just when I thought it was through playing with its food, the tide would change directions, allow me to break the surface just long enough to choke on rain, then yanked me right back down to drag my face across the sand. I might have begged it for mercy once or twice. I thought I heard it laugh. Glad someone was having a good time.
What felt like hours, days later, the pain finally started to fade.
Something massive collided with my side. It would have knocked the wind from my lungs if they'd had any left.
Naively, I hoped it was James, miraculously still alive and risking that precious gift to make sure I got home safe.
The sea wasn't quite done beating the shit out of me, it seemed; great, heavy blows connected with my spine, my chest, cracked my ribs, bruised my cheek—
"Cough, stupid!" something hissed inside my skull.
I did, and if I thought the water sucked going in, it was much, much worse coming back out. Again, a mighty fist smashed against my back, and again, and again, until it was satisfied I'd returned all that I'd unwillingly taken from the sea. If I died and all my good deeds meant anything at all to the universe, then God was a fucking asshole.
He laughed, thunderous and cruel, and smacked my back again.
The world went dark.
It returned far too bright and stinking of brine. My ingratitude offended the earth, apparently, because a sinkhole opened up beside my hip, rolling me towards — something solid. Message received, I was so grateful for the light and the fermenting salt.
"Good t'see drownin' didn't kill your sense of humor." Thick fingers gripped my jaw and shook it like I'd put something in my mouth a dog wasn't supposed to swallow. "C'mon, we got work to do."
I grimaced, cracking one eye open wide enough to make out the face of God. Beady eyes and rows of teeth greeted me.
"Am I in Hell?" I croaked without thinking any wiser of it.
The Devil laughed again. "Maybe," he sneered. "Depends on you." He rose, but rather than callously let the mattress fling me off the other side, his massive, scarred hand closed over my arm and yanked me to my feet.
"I don't think I'm in any state to—"
"Complain? Nah. You got a name?"
No sooner had it fallen from my tongue, it was swept away on a gust of wind.
"Idiot," he chuckled. "You're a Keeper now. Have to be smarter than that if you're gonna survive out here."
At least the anger kept me on my feet as he turned away. "And what's yours, then?"
The smile he cast over his shoulder wasn't friendly. "Xoctosz," he said. "Try to take it, Keeper."
"What are you?" I called after him. He beckoned me to follow. I dug my feet in.
None of the sharks I'd seen on my recreational dives had quite so many teeth. "Death." Again, he beckoned.
I curled my toes into the gaps between the warped floorboards.
"I'm not a patient man, Keeper."
"And what if I don't want to be your keeper?"
The windows all slammed open and the stormwinds rushed in. "Water's right there. You can leave any time."
My lungs burned. I followed Death.





















