several sentence sunday tuesday
(since I hurt your feelings with that mini, here have something life-affirming :) ; aka, the mpreg/babyfic NO ONE is asking me to write)
Tommy crosses the space between them, stands in front of the peninsula, opposite from him. He turns the bag around, and although Evan had done a decent job of hiding the evidence from the top, the side of the box can easily be seen in the translucent bag. His breath quickens.
“Did you want to tell me something,” Tommy asks him. His tone is soft and inquisitive, but not angry.
His mouth feels dry and his jaw slacks. “I…” His gaze shifts back and forth between Tommy and the bag, and whether he’s entirely aware of it or not, his hand slides down the front of his shirt, resting over his abdomen as anxiety flurries around inside of him. “T-Tommy.” Tears pierce his eyes. He needs more time to figure this out. He’s not ready for this conversation.
Tommy’s shoulders sink and he rounds the peninsula, leaning down long enough to set the bag on the floor before he closes the space between himself and Evan. He grabs him at the hips, firm but gentle, and pops him up onto the counter with ease.
“Hey,” he coaxes gently. “Talk to me.”
Evan shakes his head, trying to find air and the ability to swallow, but his panic is just continuing to rise. Tommy frowns, reaching up and brushing a thumb over his cheek. He takes a step to his right, reaching up into the over-sink rack and grabbing a clean glass before filling it and moving back in front of Evan.
“Drink,” he orders softly, lifting the glass to Evan’s lips.
The blonde takes it gratefully, swallowing down several gulps. When his mouth is more wet, he pushes it away and Tommy sets it inside the sink before reaching for Evan’s hands and holding them, brushing his thumbs over the back.
“Now talk to me,” Tommy repeats. “What’s going on?”
Evan shakes his head, new tears filling his eyes. “I-I don’t- I just- I mean, I- i-it- I wasn’t tr-trying-…”
“Okay,” Tommy comments, letting go of his hands to cup his face. “Take a breath, baby.”
“But this-…I mean we’re not- it’s too soon, and-..”
Tommy shakes his head this time, a small frown pulling on the corners of his mouth. “Honey, we haven’t even had a conversation about this. Now take a deep breath and start with what made you buy a test.”
Evan nods, forcing himself to inhale a deep breath in time with Tommy’s own breaths, and after a few seconds, his brain feels a little less fuzzy.
“Eddie made a comment about me eating everything in sight,” he murmurs after a moment. A scowl sets quickly into Tommy’s expression, and he shakes his head. “No, no. Not like that. Just-…just- he was right. A-and then Bobby and I were talking about vacation time coming up, and I was thinking back to the holidays, and that got me thinking about how we’d spent them, and then before I knew it, I was standing in the aisle at the drug store.”
Tommy nods, following along with his story. “So you took the test then?”
Evan gulps again, nods again. “s’ positive.”
Tommy stares at him for a moment, considering the information Evan has shared with him. “Well.” He pauses, and Evan isn’t sure if it’s for dramatic effect or if he’s actually thinking, but either way, he’s not a fan. Tommy takes a breath. “We knew this was a risk.”
“B-but we-we haven’t even discuss-discussed it,” Evan stammers, and his panic rising back up is practically visible from outer space. Tommy shakes his head gently, shushing him softly as his thumbs move against Evan’s cheeks again.
“Calm down,” he murmurs softly. He waits a moment, lets Evan breathe. “You’re right. We haven’t talked about it. But we have talked about kids in the grand scheme, and this might not have been the plan, but it’s happening.” He pauses again, and this time he’s the one taking a deep breath. “Now, at the end of the day, this is your body and your decision. But whatever you decide… I’m in.”
Evan gulps at Tommy’s statement. Whatever he decides? Tommy has zero input on this? That’s not really an effective answer to where he thought this discussion would go, not that he was even clear on how he did expect it to go.
“Take all the circumstances out of it,” Tommy tells him, tilting his head and watching Evan’s expression. “Don’t think about how long we’ve been together or where our lives are at. Just whether this is something you want.”
Evan nods, glancing down at his hands in his lap for a moment. Truth be told, he doesn’t need Tommy’s help with that part of things. He’s always known that he wanted kids. If he’s being honest, it wasn’t long after Tommy first kissed him that he was imagining having Tommy’s babies. Still, as much as those two feelings have coexisted inside of him for nearly a year now, he expected to have more time than this.
“I’ve known that since the first time you kissed me,” he rasps, his voice shaking. Tommy’s eyes soften at him and his head tilts just a bit more as a smile tugs further across his face.
“Evan.” He slides him forward on the counter, leans up half an inch or so and captures Evan’s lips in a kiss, sliding one of his hands behind the younger man’s head. Still, he doesn’t hold the kiss for more than a few seconds. When he pull back, his gaze drops between them to Evan’s stomach before he looks back up at him, the glint of something in his eyes.
“So we’re doing this,” Tommy states, and it’s not really a question.
“I mean, I-…” He pauses, takes a breath. “Yes.”
Tommy’s smile splits into a grin, and he pulls Evan even closer. Evan’s legs lock around his hips as Tommy laughs, burying his face in Evan’s neck.