Characters/Pairings: Cas and Gabe and sort of a mention of Destiel
Warnings: One day I might snap and kill everybody... Oh you meant about the fic. No, none of that. OOCness (clearly what I always warn you about)
Author's notes: So either we stop speaking Mar or I stop writing fics about it... Also wrote under my usual sleep depravation and a bit of a cold.. And uhm, what else? Oh yes, Idek man, I'm sorry okay? Idk why do you let me write this crap Mar. You're kinda the responsible bro here, you should stop me... Even if you can't
And god I most certanly should re-read this but I am so not gonna...
He wasn't expecting to find his brother sitting on the edge of his bed, legs crossed over the mattress and a childish smile on his face.
Then again no one would really expect to find the archangel Gabriel with his lips curled up, sitting on their houses like he was a five years old, not even Castiel, but at least the angel wasn't that surprised either.
"Baby bro!" Gabriel welcomed him to his own bedroom with his arms open in the air
"Gabe." he responded "Do you need anything?"
"Ouch! You hurt me Cassy! Can't a big mighty brother check on his little baby angels just because?"
Castiel stared at him for a moment, the archangel assumed little Cas was just deciding if he was joking or not
"It is late, you have work tomorrow, I have college" he resumed his walk and sat besides his brother turning his face to look at him "How are you brother?"
The golden eyes litted up with joy when the other started the conversation "I'm pretty fine thank you, and how are you?"
"I'm good..." he paused, feeling he was fighting a yawn he didn't even need "I'm tired... And sleepy..."
"Boohoo, should I let you sleep then?" Gabriel asked with a pout that quickly became a smirk, he moved as closer as he could, noses almost touching "But come on Cassy, are you going to tell me Dean-o wears you out that much? That aint proper of an angel of the lord..."
"Is not Dean" he answered quickly, almost trying to ignore what his brother said last, trying to ignore the bits of truth it had "It's just college. Dean never tires me... And I haven’t seen him in a while now, with all the exams and papers..."
He made another paused and looked away from the eldest’s eyes, not because he was ashamed, he wasn't still quite sure how shame worked, but seeing the golden gaze upon him, waiting, ready to hear anything he wanted to tell, it made him feel suddenly uncomfortable, not like he couldn't trust his brother but more like he was about to trust him with something big, with something he haven't said out loud yet, for a second he wondered if this was what Sam meant as embarrassment
"I miss Dean..." He blurted out, looking distractedly at his fingers
Gabriel let out a sight, half relief, because even if he didn't have to admit it, his body tensed when he saw how stressed Castiel looked
He put a hand over the messy black hair and shifted his position a bit to sit closer "I'm sorry baby bro..." his voice was softer, honest. He moved his had to hug the angel from over the shoulders "Hey I could just smite some of your teachers to make you happy..." he added in a more playful tone and then shrugged "But then again you and Sam don't tend to appreciate that kind of little jokes..."
Castiel's face and shoulders relaxed a bit "No, I won’t appreciate it of course, I wouldn't believe Sam will either. Besides we need the teachers to pass the classes." he explained
"So you want me to smite all the class then?" the archangel came back acting exited, the hand that wasn't hugging his brother moving in front of his face, trying to make him imagine all the possibilities "I could make everyone forget about it! I would even erase it from your college documents and all!"
A slight, almost invisible smile appeared on Castiel’s lips "There is no need for that, I can cope"
“Aw come on Cassy!” he took his arms from around his little brother and crossed them over his chest “See? I’m always offering my help from the bottom of my heart and that’s what I get!” he continued, acting offended for a few more seconds before changing furrowed eyebrows for a fake surprise, his elbows on his again crossed legs, the back of his hands holding his chin “What if I just pout long enough? Would that make your decision to let me erase everything easier?” he offered, already doing it
A soft, sincere laugh came out of Castiel’s mouth, and for a second Gabriel wasn’t sure if he was just amused or there was actually a bit of relieve, of gratefulness for the help offered, even if he disapproved of the method.
“No Gabe, you can’t smite any of my classes.” He answered looking once again at the archangel “I need them. And I like them. I’m just tired, is normal.” Castiel looked up staring at nothing in particular, like if an old, not completely accepted realization was hitting him again “I am so human sometimes”
The words came so natural they just lingered in the air for a second before Gabriel tapped his shoulder and said “Jeez that you are Cassy, can’t deny it…”
It was honest but playful, trying to light the mood, trying to make the subject pass like a joke, but he could see the other angel tense again, avoiding looking to his direction
And the archangel could see this unspoken conversation was terrifying Cas, Gabriel knew it, he could feel it, because he had lived in the human world long enough, because he had been an angel and a trickster and a pagan god, because he knew what was like to fall from grace, to feel far from it, far from home, because he have talked with his little brother about humanity, about the things he have seen, the things humans have done, and half of them in the name of some god.
So Castiel was scared, and confused, because he knew humanity, he had seen humanity himself and he had heard about it from most his brothers, and he had fallen, like lots of them, and he wasn’t sure how much of a cursed and how much of a bless he had from humans anymore, sometimes Gabriel thought he wasn’t even sure how much of a bless he did still had from home, or maybe even how much of a bless it was.
“But it’s kind of a good thing you know?” The archangel said putting his feet down on the floor so they could be side by side, looking too at the closed door that was in front of them “I mean, in you. I said it as a compliment and all…” he turned himself a bit to look at him again “There are tons of good humans out there Cassy, and if you were a human you would be one of them”
When Castiel looked back at him he seemed more relaxed, with one of those really unusual smiles, with one of those relieved looks people had on their faces when they are being accepted, when they understand is okay to just be, to make your own decisions, to have your own mistakes, to just be received.
Gabriel smiled brightly at him, just letting the other know how happy it made him that he could actually gave him that, because he didn’t know how many more time his little brother was going to receive that acceptance from somebody else, at least from the family. As a matter of fact, he actually did know how he wasn’t going to, because he was there once, turning his back to that, leaving heaven alone.
“You would suck as a Trickster thou” He said with his usual smirk on again, suddenly making his brother appeared in some ridiculous –but comfortable- pajamas under the bed covers
Castiel’s eyes looked lost for less than a second before turning to his brother with a stern look “You know I don’t appreciate when you do that.”
“I know, that’s what makes it funny” he smiled innocently “Now now off to bed, I don’t want you all grumpy in the morning because you didn’t have your beauty sleep”
The younger angel was about to complain when he realized he was just not going to win against his brother tonight. Instead he made himself comfortable and looked at Gabriel one more time “Goodnight then, Gabe”
“Sweet dreams” he smiled, seeing his brother’s eyes getting close “You are a good human baby bro, a better angel, but a good human”
“Thanks” the voice already rusty and sleepy, and a smile that was getting lost on some fantasy “I try to be”
