so recently I've had the opportunity to get away, from literally everything, home, work, people, all of it. and over the course of a few weeks the "normal" ongoing underlying stress and angst has sort of just dissolved away. it wasn't at first obvious, it's only by contrast that it showed up at all. when the emotional energy around me became aroused and I found myself activated, into a fight flight response. then, Ive had the luxury of time to observe these physiological responses diminish back to the baseline chill that's been the normal for the last little while. very interesting to notice the activation level peak and slowly drop off as the hormone levels return to pre-activated levels. it's happened a few times and each time it's been interesting to observe, maybe all my mindfulness practice is starting to pay off. edit- there's also been a lot more brain space, or capacity for thinking and remembering day to day stuff and I feel like I'm getting some of my old sharpness or mental agility back, that's all for now. oh don't even get me started on the premonitive dreams and visions, synchronicities and the flow state, like wow
