finalgwen replied to your post “Now that it’s sinking in a bit more, I can write this, albeit in a...”
I'm so sorry for your loss. Reading your posts about your relationship was always a joy because of the happiness and love that radiated from them.
Oh goodness, yes, we were (in a strange way, I think, are) so in love and so happy with each other.
Some of it was sheer chemistry, but we clicked in almost every way imaginable; intellectually, creatively, and yes in the TMI zones too. We found each other’s dumb puns funny. We liked each other’s writing styles. We were not without clashes--he self-sabotaged, for various reasons, and I could not always be patient with that though I tried to be understanding; for that matter I know my temper was not always a great match for him--but still, any relationship I have for the rest of my life will have to measure up to that.
We liked each other beyond reason, we were totally in lesbians with each other, and we were never shy about telling each other so (or telling each other how good it felt to be told so...a virtuous cycle).
I have lots of good memories, and he had good experiences and a lot to look forward to. There’s some comfort in that. My regret about this relationship is that it couldn’t last much longer, couldn’t last forever. And that kind of regret makes a good testament to our bond.
(Oh, yes, girlfriend, pun intended.)