Personal Disbelief
Personal disbelief is my phrase for the idea that we can consciously refuse to see a truth about ourselves. If we are noticing something and it seems to happen continuously then we’ve got to be able to see that the common factor is us: we are the reason or the cause for whatever is happening. For me, I’ve been experiencing personal disbelief in two parts.
The first part is in bad personal hygiene. I take good care of showering and all that, but I somehow have obtained (or always had??) a stench that follows me everywhere, to a point that I don’t feel comfortable going to my workplace. It appears to be due to my diet, but I have not been able to get it to disappear. For quite sometime, I believed my boss or other coworkers were the cause of it, but I am certainly the cause of my stench.
The second part of my disbelief is thinking people are just not decent. I like to believe that I am good with people, and that’s just not always true. I’m an introvert (INFJ or something similar) but I have extraverted needs. I usually struggle if I’m not around people continuously, but I tend to ignore people as soon as I no longer need them. The reason I don’t have lots of friends can’t be because people suck; it’s got to be because I suck (at being a friend...).
I don’t know what other personal disbeliefs we can carry, or which I carry myself, but be careful. If something seems wrong, it probably is. That doesn’t mean you can’t do something about it. Be strong, be confident, and seek our solutions.