#firefiightcr

[evcryopeneye]

@firefiightcr

The world was a little darker, that was for sure…truth was, everything felt off. It was as if someone had just removed a whole room from her house in one night. Like someone had ripped a part of her life away that in hindsight, she didn’t realise how big a part of her life Gabby had been and yet, that paled to Matt. If she was devastated, she couldn’t imagine how Matt was feeling.

It was funny in some sick and twisted way, she had moved here because people back in Fallerton thought that she was weak, that she was incapable of surviving by herself but Chicago had offered her a family. It had given her friends that encouraged her, that pushed her to be better, that had believed in her…and Gabby had always been there. Through everything she had been there despite all of her flaws, had encouraged her to stand up for herself, but not lose the softness that made Sylvie…well Sylvie. For a moment Sylvie contemplated the idea that she wouldn’t be the person she was today if it wasn’t for her family at the firehouse. To loose someone, so fast, without a goodbye…it hurt.

“Hey…” It wasn’t like the Chinese food and beer she had in her hands was going to help heal that hurt for either of them, but Sylvie guessed arriving empty handed wouldn’t help either so why not? Who else’s front door was she going to turn up at, eyes rimmed red, make up cried off in her car as she tried to comprehend it all. “I um….I figured that…” maybe it had been totally wrong to just show up? “Neither of us were really okay right now and…it’s probably better to eat food and drink beer with someone then to cry in my car.”

[xmcmusesx]

Christmas: tag someone who has become a personal friend to you.

December Positivity Meme

oh man. i can’t just tag one! i’ve had a lot of people become personal friends to me, so i’mma tag as many of them as i can remember their urls. 

@mcmachine @soldierheartcd @oktva @firefiightcr @theirnarrative @thexsloans @grcwingstrcng @strengthmade @jenniferjareaufbi @dralexk

i’m sure there are even more, but these are the ones i can remember off the top of my head!

[evcryopeneye]

@firefiightcr

She’s shaking, knee bouncing, hand shaking…sometimes it hit her. During a busy day with call after call, she could push it to the back of her mind. Then in the quiet moments like this, late at night on shift…her brain was screaming it over and over again. Pregnant. A breath caught in her chest, it felt like panic rising…what was she meant to do? Antonio off on some blind date with someone just as she had found the courage to tell him, well, what she should have told him a long, long time ago. It was all backfiring spectacularly. That was what she got for trying to be something she wasn’t, right? Maybe less Fullerton, more Chicago, hadn’t been the approach to take after all.

“Ooh god I ruined everything,” the emotional finally caught at the back of her throat. Then again, maybe crying in a locker room at work in the middle of the night wasn’t the way to deal with this either.

[evcryopeneye]

@firefiightcr all aboard the crack train

Her head hurts, that kind of pounding headache that was the telltale sign of a hangover. Sylvie simply pulled the covers closer, buried her head into the pillow and screwed her eyes shut. She didn’t normally end up in this state, all she could was wrack her brains, attempting to work out how she had managed to get herself into such a state? She remembered Molly’s, she vaguely remembered the bar closing, remembered leaving with someone, remembered more alcohol and then…oh.

Oh.

For just a moment she didn’t want to move, between the hangover and the sinking realisation she might have just done something very stupid, she was not prepared to deal with today but morning had broken.

Blinking, the room came into focus. It wasn’t her apartment. She recognised the dusty blonde hair, the clothes on the floor, oh…she had. This had the markings of pure nightmare fuel. Her heart leapt into her chest. Of all the people in the universe, Matt? Oh god. Oh no. Oh shit. This was the worst. This was it. This was the worst thing she had ever done in her life. Wasn’t he off limits? After all he was still technically married to her best friend…even if Gabby had left. There were unspoken rules. There were lines you did not cross, and she had just managed to smash said line to smithereens.

A hand pressed to her forehead, her hair an absolute mess, sticking up every which way possible, Sylvie mused for a moment about how it looked exactly like her brain felt right now. “So…” oh, there was a shake in her voice. She might have been internally freaking out, but suspected that jumping out of bed and yelling at him might not have gone down well. After all, both of them had made this choice. “Are you as hung over as I am?” Okay, stupid question and she knew it but she had to break the tension or it was going to be unbearable.

[methodcop]

                He didn’t answer for a moment. He knew how the guy felt. Circumstances might have been different, but he sure as hell knew what it was like for the person you loved to disappear without a word -- for months. Things had turned out alright for him. But he couldn’t promise that for the guy next to him.  “ Yeah -- you’re right. But you might as well try, right? What else are you gonna do? ”  he said, offering the other man a slight, resigned smile.  “ You talked to her at all? ”

@firefiightcr​ / from x

[ghcstdoctor]

                  He knew the look of a rough day when he saw it. And the other man definitely looked like he needed a drink.  “ Heavy hangs the crown, huh? ”  he said with the hint of a sympathetic smile. He wasn’t one for heart to hearts -- at least not with the alive and conscious -- but he had to ask.  “ You wanna talk about it? Next round’s on me... ”

@firefiightcr / s.c.

[interniist-a]

“No, I don’t want to talk about it.”

nightmare  starters !!

( STATUS : accepting  )   |   @firefiightcr.

  an  understanding  nod  is  his  first  reaction  ⸺  far  be  it  for  conrad,  of  all  people,  to  criticize  an  unwillingness  to  share.  he’s  seen  enough  nightmares  in  his  time  to  understand  that  there  are  some  that  are  best  left  in  the  DARK.  ❝ fine  with  me  … ❞  emotional  discussions  have  never  been  his  forte.  not  that  he’s  ENTIRELY  absent  a  trick  or  two  to  help  lighten  the  captain’s  spirits.  ❝but  i’ve  got  a  sixer  in  the  fridge  back  home  and  last  night’s  ‘hawks  game  if  you’re  up  for  a  little  liquid  therapy. ❞

[littlegraey-blog]

❝Can you hear me?❞

* CAR ACCIDENT STARTERS. / @FIREFIIGHTCR.

the  smell  of  smoke  escaping  from  the  engine  of  her  car  fills  her  nostrils ,  and  suddenly  she’s  coughing  up  half  a  lung ,  unsure  of  where  she  is  or  why  she  can’t  feel  the  lower  half  of  her  body .  it  takes  a  few  seconds  of  processing  and  the  blinding  of  fluorescent  lights  for  her  to  register  the  fact  that  her  car  is  wrapped  around  a  pole .  she  tugs  at  her  seatbelt  in  an  attempt  to  FREE  herself ,  the  ringing  sounds  in  her  ear  slowly  translating  to  that  of  a  male’s  voice .   ❝    h-huh  ,  yeah  . . .   i’m  fine ,  i  think  .   ❞   brows  furrowed  as  she  tries  to  stand  up ,   ❝   i’m  a  doctor  at  grey  sloan  memorial  hospital  ,  d-d’ya  think  you  could  take  me  there  ?   ❞