#firsttimepoetry

[detectivec375]

You Mean So Much

You are my world.

You are every waking and final thought that crosses my mind.

All the time we spend together is cherished

because I know how special you are.

It may seem cliche,

but if the world were to end today, 

I would only want to be with you.

I would only want to talk to you.

I would only want to touch you.

I would only want to live with you.

I would only want to die with you. 

No one else.

Every moment we spend together brings me closer to the thing I want most;

for me to be your world, too.

[cubsin5-blog-blog]

A Compendium Of My Thoughts at 2:05 AM, June 2nd, 2014

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I don't know what I was supposed to learn in Grade 7 English

But I remember reading "Jamie Brace is a fag" on the washroom wall

The janitor did a good job removing it

But the determination of junior high students is a force to be reckoned with

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I don't remember what I l was supposed to learn in Grade 8 Technology

But I do remember that most of my friends were on a wrestling forum

They were kinda cool

But while the internet can be a good place to find likeminded people its hardly a place to find sympathy and empathy

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I don't remember what I was supposed to learn in Grade 9 Music

But I do remember being interested in choir when the rest of my class was interested in playing guitar

I only got made fun of on Mondays and Wednesdays for that

But I got some breathing exercises out of it, and considering how hard breathing is sometimes, its probably more useful than it should have been

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I don't remember what I was supposed to learn in Grade 10 Theatre

But I do remember....Actually I don't remember much, I'm kinda proud of forcing that out of my head

Or maybe it was beaten out of my head, those lockers were kinda hard some days

But I did drop my pants in front of the school on the last day and tell my math teacher to kiss my ass

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I don't remember what I was supposed to learn in Grade 11 Theatre

But I kind of think that was the point

I sometimes think if I didn't transfer to PWC I wouldn't be alive

But I am and if I can survive Beaconsfield and Bishops I can survive anything.

  .

I don't remember what I was supposed to learn in Grade 12 Band & Choir

But I do remember being happy

Road tripping the province was one of the greatest experiences imaginable

But they say you remember things as better than they were.

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I don't know what I was thinking in my first year of CNA

I don't know what I was thinking when I moved to Stephenville

I don't know what I was thinking when I did a 2nd year in Stephenville

I don't know what I was thinking when I moved back and started working

I don't know what I am thinking now.

I don't think anyone does.

I don't do.

[igottheczech]

My minds been filled lately Schools been a real bitch Im scared, scared so greatly My friend cut so I got called a snitch I dont know what im looking for Or what I really want Will I find myself at the top or near the floor Figure your life out my parents taunt I wont fail again, I've done it enough So dont tell me I wont be something I will suceed though it may be rough Its just a matter of time before im nothing And my dad is finally glad My sisters are liviTng the life Hes got a girlfriend, thats pretty rad Its kinda weird he just left his wife I hope I make him proud Doubt consumes me at times I tell him I am a Winner strong and loud I hate myself forcomitting some shitty crimes I used to think I was fat Dad used to think I was gay But now I swing a 33 inch bat So now, I am okay I hate her and all her shit A "mom" that never was or ever will be I think I should order a hit Dump that bitch out at see I hope my sisters never turn out like her For Christmas I should buy them a dove My sisters are good, they wouldnt create a stirr I miss them so much, all they are is filled with love And my Aztecs are the same Were all equal on the inside Every day is just another game My hearts open for them, far and wide School is coming to an end And once again im stressing over finals It seems like life's just round the bend I guess this isnt the end, its just the semi-finals So, I honestly have no reason to stress I know everything will turn out great Even after all this i will be a success, oh yes However, if it is not so I will be quite irate Ill make something of myself, ill say it again Tell me I wont, cause ill prove you wrong Hapiness and virtue is all I hope to gain We'll all find our place, well find where we belong So typing this in my bed I will be the best I can be Tomorrow, it is school that I dread Where will I be, well lets just see.

[igottheczech]

Livin life but it feels like the end of it

Its a cold world when you don't got a friend in it

Hell, what am I to do? What if I dont give a damn what I am to you?

I do this shit for me, its like therapy.

Thats why I keep the pen around, cause you were never there for me.

But it is, and you dont like the fact that I did this.

But it's whatever, I can stay forever on your shit list.

This time, I'm gonna do it for me.

I dont give a shit about money I would do this shit for free.

If it aint about the words then its all about the beat.

Lose yourself in the music, put it on repeat.

Try to put your ass to sleep, but the music got you thinkin,

thinking bout your problems. Problems got you drinking.

Drink them til you solve them or drink them til your numb.

You can figure it out but now, drinking got you dumb.

And you wonder what happened? Everything used to be fine

Everything I want now, used to be mine.

And it slipped away, wishing you could rewind.

Looking at your girlfriend wishing you could read minds.

Looking at your watch wishing you could freeze time.

Looking at your problems, trying to throw the peace sign. Deuces!

And get the hell up outta there.

But you got no cash flow, you aint even got a prayer.

Dang!, it's weighing on you heavy.

You werent even ready, and it hit you like a ton of bricks

Everything was cool, how the hell did it go from fun to this?

Theres gotta be a better way, theres gotta be a better way.

Get the hell up outta bed and get a better day!