February 15 (1am again).
It's only been 72 hrs, but I've had the worst day. Valentines. Dropped off my son after-school at Alex's. He showed me how nice he's been cleaning and touching up paint everywhere. Whatever. I finally asked him if he's selling his house for real. "If I get a decent price for it." "Then what?" "(His home province)" "You're not taking D" "Yes I am." "No you're not." And he had the audacity to say not the time or place for talking about it, and told me to get out. And to stop going there when he's not home. Like I ever do. Tf.
He was right tho. I didn't want to fight about it in front of our kid, so I left. And cried all day. I have the rankest headache. Didn't get my assignment done, but it's due Wed, so I have tomorrow lol.
Anyways, I told my parents. My dad called but I ignored it cuz I was ugly crying still. Slept a bit. He called back and told me to call a lawyer. It was already too late cuz it was after hours already. But I emailed a office to ask for a consultation. So, fuck it. Court it will be then. I'm not weak anymore for him to think he could bully me anymore. I'm tired of it. Fuck him if he wants to leave, he can go. But don’t take my baby.
I hate this tho. Not what I wanted. Idk why I assumed everything would be fine forever. He's not even from here. Shit head. And I don't even care anymore if they say I could take half his earnings from that house. I'd let it happen. Sick of thinking I owe him anything, or being scared. If I'm entitled, for my kid's sake, I'll take it.
We'll just have to see. I don't care if I don't get anything. Main thing is keeping my son here. He needs me, and he's close to my family. Alex barely even has his. And works away for work. He'd fuck up our kid if he took him away. Omgggggggg.
But fucking bedtime cuz I can't just not go to school. I'm so tired of dealing with piles of shit over and over. When can I just be done? All I wanna do is be happy, finish school and carry on with my life. 🥺 I'm so tired. And always hurting. Wtf.