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[noah-wyles]

i think i've seen this film before...

[himbodad]

hermann voice kaiju grrrrroupie makes me smile so hard

[lovelybasilisk]

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[gerrydelano]

ouuugghhhhhh my brain finally permitted me to read the new pbr chapter and i’m. im. this was so much i’m feeling. thiiiiings. incredible prose, & that absolutely heart-rending scene between [REDACTED FOR SPOILERS] was just horribly tragic, tim please take care of gerry ;-; dont have many words today but know that i am mentally extolling your skill as a writer. also ADELARD MY BELOVED i am endlessly endeared by how you write him he’s so fucking good. also also i LOVE how you’re playing with the medium you’re writing in that’s something that i have always thought was cool as fuck and extremely under utilized just like.. how you can push the story or characterize things through details that specifically come through the manipulation of the medium... i’m thinking about it. house of leaves vibes esp combined w the like. both literal and metaphorical present and residual hauntings throughout the story, (that’s a whole other thing though), absolutely my shit. you’re killing it :]

aaaah oh wow hi hello! holy shit aaaah. i’m so glad it resonated, i’d been sitting on that scene for A YEAR i keep saying it because i need you all to know how torturous it was. tim is doing his best to handle things because gerry is actively debilitated, but he really needs some help, too! this recreated the last night he saw danny a little too precisely for him to be even remotely okay, RIP king.

also ADELARD OUR BELOVED. he’s so much fun, i am in love with All of my plans for him, especially his family! it felt really important to incorporate some capacity for silliness alongside not only making mistakes but apologizing for them, too. (i love writing old people as foils for other old people, i guess 🤔)

and g-d i am SO GLAD i decided to make it interactive and just. give it some Texture... like, dekker indenting his letters but gerry not, the fucking emails are my favorite jdhfbjdn Sent from my iPad is the only thing carrying me through. and changing the color of someone’s dialogue when they give a compelled response :-) heehoo. i am a little frog in a wizard hat. and i haven’t read house of leaves, but it’s been recommended like 5 times so i really should get on that! i love... hauntings... much to think about.

thank you so much for reading & stopping by to share your thoughts! 🧡

[tetranocular]

because ive been spending so much time away from other ppl, ive been doing more things im typically super self-conscious about (even when im alone bc ya boy internalizes that shit) and i gotta say, it’s extremely freeing

people dont mind stimming when youre just flicking around a fidget spinner, but the minute i start flapping my hands or wiggling or making odd sounds, ppl give me looks, and so im incredibly thankful that i can be alone so often and do these things when the urge comes around, instead of suppressing them and making myself extremely uncomfortable and stressed out

i also think being able to stim in peace has gotten me more okay with the idea of stimming, because i’m like.. slowly teaching myself that i dont need to be ashamed and that the opinions of the ppl who judge me for it arent worth anything anyways

i still carry a lot of shame with myself about every single little thing, but i hope to eventually undo most of the damage that society has done to my self esteem, and i also hope i never let them re-teach me shame

[moldsporesinhaler]

im making a big huge beautiful Siffrin folder. and it has a bunch of folders within it. and theyre all named in order of songs on hawaii part II because i got bored. AND I REALIZED I CAN NAME THE MAL DU PAYS FOLDER BLACJ RAINBOWS. 🤯🤯🤯🤯

[xenole]

Day 6 - Outdoor sex

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[mushywutty]

it makes me so ( good morning btw ) it makes me so happy how i be doing my own thang then suddenly my friends do it too...