▼ What is their greatest fear? / △ Name one thing from their past that they regret.
HORRIFIC HEADCANONS | ACCEPTING .
▼ what is their greatest fear?
LOSING HIS YOUTH. malcolm is addicted to staying young both physically and at heart, his teen years were the best he’s ever had despite the occasional abuse behind the scenes of the blacksmith, he LOVED to sneak out, party and cause mayhem in near villages. he was someone that loved to live life without a fear and without a care. one of the reasons why his ADDICTION to it is so strong is because its the only time he really, feels. as someone who struggles with emotion, feelings aren’t often something that happens. but the nostalgia is a dangerous addiction and something he REFUSES to let go of.
he’s someone with a shitty childhood, amazing teen years and a terrible adulthood. so he wants to cling to a time where he was happy, free.
△ name one two things from their past that they regret?
LEAVING HIS SON THE WAY HE DID. he doesn’t regret the power gained from choices, but he does regret the bad terms that those choices forced them to leave on. it’s something that actually eats him alive; thinking about it every single day, its one of the reasons he tries to busy himself because even he, knows there’s no point thinking on it because there is nothing that can be done to change the FRACTURED relationship.
PAN WASN’T A GOOD FATHER. but by god he tried, but another regret is not treating his kid right; spending too many nights at the pub while his son was being baby sat by two spinsters, being DISTANT with him as much as he was. but that part wasn’t his fault, sadly he’s just someone that suffers from emotional detachment and this was one of the relationships that proved it. but if he could somehow take it back, he would in a heart beat.