Since the age of nine or ten, I have been absolutely destroying time.
The time always seemed to go to waste from the outside looking in.
While in my mind, I thought it was my only escape.
I didn’t read books as my family had hoped.
I needed a way to cope with the truama and bull I endored.
So, I went onto the internet.
It started mainly with anime and tumblr.
Internet chat sites where as a young child I met the lowest of the low without knowing it.
I ran rings around Pewdiepie’s videos and Cryotic, and multitudes of silly videos and horror stories.
I watched Veggietails, I watched sesame street. I watched the teletubbies.
Ben 10, Inuyasha, Teen titans, and so so many other things growing up since I was born.
Then up till now, I’ve spent my time talking to random strangers over the internet, watching lethal amounts of youtube, and writing.
Writing about characters from whatever current craze has me in it’s grips.
It was cartoons, then anime, Homestuck, Supernatural, Doctor who, Osomatsu-san, and Finally, The Avengers.
I never was the type to look into the artists behind the acting- or at least when I did it was because the fandom gave me something to love about that person.
I was never interested in getting to know celebrates, thinking it was all gossip and drama but then I hit interviews.
I quickly learned..
Not only do these people do a great portraying the characters I love, they are very charming and usually pretty damn attractive.
Now I get the craze. I want to know them. I want to join them. I want to be their friend. I want to put the work in and get there but..
I have no one to teach me and I need a little direction, I’m broke, and I’m stuck at home so..
I am here just killing time.
More than ready to get the ball rolling but helpless to do so.
Years of my life.. Years and years out of my 21 years were spent watching others live life. I can only hope that I’ll be able to make up all of that time before
