when? march 18, 2019
where? lotte department store
with who? @fmdxjaehyun
“ does it look tight? does it? i think it does look too tight. ” ahreum was made of simple outfits matched with the most extravagant jackets which seemed to be a match made in heaven with his personality and the way his skin always looked like glistening in sunlight ━but the issue this time seemed to lie more in the shirt he was given by the stylist, which felt way too tight against his chest. which itself was one weird problem because he was essentially a noodle ━athletic for sure, but thin and flexible. he would keep glancing at his reflection, at the way the silken fabric in icy white wrapped around his frame, the skinny black pants, and the oversized denim jacket in washed out azure covered in extravagant patches and golden details which was meant to be the protagonist of the whole ensemble ━the frown in his face causing his tiny dimple to pop out. “ hyung, why do all the costume accidents happen to me? what do i do if i pop a button and it just, ━i don’t know!━ skyrockets on someone’s forehead? ”
Maybe it was because the bartender knew her that he just knew she was too hammered to go home on her own. There were days when Lipstick didn't have to be at the music shows and tomorrow was one of those days when they could breathe before they had to be present at their next begrudging line of schedules. She felt suffocated with the tight schedule so when some friends called her to hang out, she went with them. There was no one to stop her. Her emergency contacts were listed as follows: Eunji, Hyeju, Jaehyun, Minah then Kino. None of which was her mother, her manager or her group's leader. They weren't the best people to contact when Candy wasn't herself. At least, those people knew how to handle her and would take care of her before nagging.
But the universe decided to play a trick on her as first two people on her list couldn't be reached and the bartender had to go for Jaehyun's number and of course, the angel that he is. He picked up. Candy learned this only after she had heard his voice call for her name. She was a VIP at the said club and she had gotten pretty close to the staff and the owner due to her frequent visits. She's had one too many drinks, which most were free and her friends were long gone before she had gotten drunk. Maybe it was the vodka, she'd say if she was sober enough to do so, but no, she wasn't.
“I feel sick.” Candy was clinging on the bar counter then. The world was spinning. She could see the bright neon colored lights dancing in her vision and voices whispering above the loud music. The familiar scent of alcohol was laced with an even familiar scent, familiar voice and familiar touch. It was all too familiar for her to ignore. “The hell are you doing here!?” In her mind, she was shoving him away but in reality she was just speaking in slurs and frowning at him while pouting like he had done something wrong. Frankly, he did. He left her, just like her dad. “I don't need you!” Candy points Jaehyun. “I can take care of myself!” She tries to get up from her seat, almost tripping because of her heels. Everything made her sick and he made her feel worse. Did he really have to see her at her worst?
“Fuck? Probably, Andy ( @fmdandy ). He’s the most active one out of all the people I’ve dated. No kidding. He’s pretty good at it too. He’s really good at pleasing others too, sober or not.
I’d marry Jaehyun ( @fmdxjaehyun ). Not only because I dated him the longest but because I was sure as hell I loved him. He opened up a whole new world for me and I guess I’d want to spend the rest of my life with someone who knows me and wouldn’t judge me for who I am and where I really came from.
Kill? Jaewon ( @fmdjaewon ). That asshole. He was great in the beginning but he suddenly took a U-turn and never returned for whatever stupid reason he had back then. Need I say more?Maybe Minjun ( @fmdminjun ) too, but we didn’t exactly date officially. But he said dating me would be walking through hell. Something along those lines and with that he deserves to be killed.”
⌈ ✉️ ➝ minnie min ⌋ you’re getting so old now, min. soon you’ll be using a walker 😋 okay i’ll stop now, minnie. happy birthday my most favorite person ever, eat lots of cake and most importantly have fun. love you ❤️
⌈ ✉️ ➝ jae jae ⌋ you are so mean, hyung 😭 but thank you for the message! it means a lot. i hope you have a lovely valentine’s day. love you, too. 😘
date: A LONG TIME AGO *2017
mentioned: @fmdxjaehyun
word count: 783
trigger warning/s: cringe-worthy. do not read.
synopsis: That one time Hwayoung wrote a stupid love letter to Jaehyun to celebrate their Anniversary.
Hwayoung had never written a love letter for anyone before. Even when she had to write cute handwritten letters for her mother when she was young, she would go for the most basic lines and nothing more that would express how she truly felt. She has only accepted letters from a young age. Thus she found herself stumbling to write a good love letter for Jaehyun.
She contemplated day and night just to make sure she relayed her feelings through the letter. It was a decision she made after Jaehyun presented himself to her sincerely. What more can she give him when everything and anything that money can buy was never enough and will never be enough to return the same amount of love he had given her. He had been patient with her, careful and most of all, he loved her beyond great lengths despite all her flaws and imperfections.
To CJ,
I've never written a love letter before so please bear with me as you continue to read this one that I have written for you. I could have sung you the sweetest love song that could possibly exist, but dearest, there's no sound sweeter than the sound of your voice when you tell me that you love me the most. There are many gifts that money could buy but I don't think I could find the sincerity in them so I couldn't bring myself to buy you anything. Instead of a fancy gift, I thought that it would be better for you to have this instead and by the time you read this letter, don't laugh. please. I know this sucks but just keep reading.
I never thought I'd like you the first time I saw you. I've had my fair share of failed relationships and my fears of certain things which have hindered me to actually commit to anyone. Then there you were smiling at me like a fool. I wasn't smitten by it the first time but I craved to see you smile day by day as we spent more time together. You're such a good boy, which is bad news to me. I'm scared you've got some bad boy tricks up on your sleeves.
What would I do if you were ever to leave me just as I've feared or choose someone else when you realize I'm not good enough? I don't know, Jae. But the one thing I know clearly is that you're a gift. You're my serendipity. You came like a falling star and you fell right into my hands. Everything I wished for a long time ago, long before I've become what I am today, came with your smile.
You're everything I've hoped for and yet I never asked for, but nonetheless, I am blessed and grateful to call you my own. When you're sad, please read this letter and know that I'll hold you till you feel better. When you're alone, I hope you remember that you will always have me. When you're happy, I wish I'm one of the reasons why you're smiling. I've said enough. I want to stay chic and mysterious so you would continue to find reasons to love me. It's been a year, my favorite martian. You can claim your kiss after you read this.
PS. I lied about the gift part. I got you something. I love you!
Your Candy Girl,
Hwayoung
The moment she finished the letter, she couldn't bring herself to read it. It was too cheesy for her and writing it on a pink paper never helped either. It made her cringe and squeal on to her pillow. She felt like there was a need for her to stay true to her image so she folded the paper neatly. Smearing that bold red lipstick on her lips and using it as a stamp to press on the paper, just before she shoved it in a pink envelope and sealed it with some dumb yet cute candy sticker that she searched for as she visited the stationery shop. Hwayoung tucked away the letter in the deepest part of her favorite handbag, hoping that no one would ever dare find it.
When the day finally arrived for Jaehyun to receive the letter, they were at her apartment, spending the day indoors to avoid any kind of suspicions and hope that Dispatch would not dare find them. She embraced him from behind and pressed the pink envelope to his left chest. "Happy Anniversary, my favorite Martian." She whispered to him, tipping on her toes to press a kiss on his cheeks. How she loved that moment. So sweet and soft, like cotton candy melting in her mouth.
