Spirituality and Phonetics represent 1 expression of the whole self. The binary expression of this 1 is also 2, Religion and Language, or Mind and Heart. The 2 interchange and their relationship is an expression of how man is created in the "image" of God. Language is the religion of the mind/consciousness. Religion is the language of the heart/spirit. Language is the wave; it both is and isn't real. Language represents possibility, discovery, and connecting. Religion is the particle; it either is or it is not. Religion represents absolutes, persistence, and knowing. The Mind uses Word to make sense of the world around it. The Heart uses Experience to make sense of the world around it. The Word shapes language, Experience shapes religion, and Perspective defines and redefines what it means. When the Word does not align with Experience enough to make sense to your consciousness, it causes turmoil. DMX is a perfect example of this. He lived in the word, but his experiences haunted him. I believe it killed him because he was unable to find any peace in the experiences that broke him. After all the effort he had put in outside of himself to heal the world, as Swizz explained, he could not do that work on himself. He needed congregation; it's not meant to be done alone. His pains or demons lived in the roots of identity. It was beyond him to see, as Roxanne Shante explained, it happened too early and the industry only added to defenses he had to put up to protect himself from trauma. The truth is, what he was protecting himself and the world from was the pain and rage within him. The turmoil in his heart was there until his death and was still at war with his mind. I watched his final prayer, and it is clear to me it was driving him crazy but the character of the man sought to show the world the strength of his spirit while his soul was dying or about to begin the transition to god. X found the peace he prayed for that we could never provide for him here, even after he gave us so much and fought so hard for it. X understood in the end; it's not just about the fight. It's about stillness; it's about peace. In my heart, I wish I could have been there for my brother. In my mind, I know he served his time and deserves his peace. I pray for the hearts and minds of his family, friends, and fans and hope they respect his peace and find their own. I love DMX because I had the pleasure of really understanding the man. I love DMX because he represents what I want to represent, the spirit. I love DMX because he reminds me of my mission for peace, and why it's so important to me. God's children do not need to live tragic lives.