#foreveroutoftime

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introduction ♡

hi there! syaffa’s here :] i’m turning 18 this year. i speak english, indonesian, malay (hell yeah!). an enfp. i wrote stuff for fun and a placeholder for my yearning and insufferable pain. you may call what i wrote poems — or anything that you wish. i love and occasionally sleep to ethel cain’s music, or puma blue’s. i also love the 1975 A LOT, my top 5 artist on spotify are them and cigarettes after sex, also pierce the veil ☆ so pretty much everything. i also love watching movies, going out at night, and doomscrolling. you can also find me at instagram and letterboxd, my @ is citruscigs ;] oh! i also have another blog, it’s loversfever.blogspot.com !! check it out :]

...that’s all ♡

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tell me everything about it / all ears

written by syaffa, april 16th 2025

p.s inspired by my soulmate’s experience, blue ♡

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so far yet so near - 1

if you could listen to how my heart beats

when i'm around you

like how you carefully pluck your guitar strings

would the scratches and missing beats disrupt you?

if you could hold my hand

when my skin accidentally meets yours

like how the rain falls down at the same spot

would the contact worries you?

if my mind and heart wasn't that vulnerable

when i could feel your presence near

like how a gardener deliberately pick up dead flowers

would the moss and holes scares you?

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i always think of you. i keep thinking of you today, it's annoying. and i miss you, not that i want to. i don't want to miss you, it feels suffocating, like the only way to gain my breath again is to hold you in my arms even just for a second.