My life is crazy, hectic and chaotic. I often feel overwhelmed with everything I have to do. I have 2 kids of my own and one my husband and I are adopting. Plus we help my mother-in-law with her foster son as well. My foster son and her foster son are both medically fragile. So taking care of them has a few more challenges than other children. And all three of my kids can be difficult to take care of. When the children aren't listening it can be difficult to keep my cool and I'm so afraid of not being a good mom, so afraid of not doing the right thing, especially for my kids. Sometimes I feel so stuck and dumb for getting myself in this situation. My mother-in-law isn't exactly the best and "working for" her can be extremely stressful and challenging. She doesn't really make it easy. And she does very little around the house or with her adopted son. And now to top it all off, im afraid that im pregnant. My husband is going to freak out if I am. I really have no idea how we'll manage with another baby in the house. I have no idea how ill get through a pregnancy with all the craziness going on in my life. The last one was hard enough. I was so stressed the whole time. And I had to do so much the whole time. It was very difficult. I don't know if I can do that again. And not just for myself, but for my baby. Im sure that all that stress really effects the baby. It's still too early to get an accurate pregnancy test result. But the waiting game is soooooo freaking hard. My anxiety is through the roof.
