#fox feb2026

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Hate these pictures because why is my hair like that ✨️ but yknow, proof that I went outside this morning. It is a beautiful morning. The best kind of winter days are the ones where it's not too cold and the sun is shining.

Anyways, took Charles out, did the dishes, took the garbage out. Completed the depressing task of separating B and I's cards out. Bought a new shadow box to replace the one I accidentally broke so she can take it without the dried flowers disintegrating. And now I just need to shower, which I should've done before sitting down but yknow. Coral island calls to me.

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I am in my feels today. But at least I have a cat who looks at me like this.

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I have so many meetings this week, and feel very overwhelmed in general. I think it's starting to hit B that she's leaving this weekend and thus needs to pack and plan and buy some necessary items. I don't fully think it's clicked for me yet either, to be honest. I continue to be very stressed about the financial side of it but also make poor financial decisions. And its easier to be stressed about the finances than to think about sleeping alone again.

Anyways. Life continues on, despite what anyone might be going through.

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I finally showered.

It's a single degree warmer outside than yesterday so yknow, call that a win. I need to get dressed and take Charlie out. Down a bottle of water because my mouth is still SO dry.

I have to put the laundry away today and probably do dishes. Plus deal with Charles because B is out most of the day. Other than that though, just me and Coral Island. Perhaps I should actually think about what I'm going to bring to work to eat this week. But despite getting groceries I'm really not sure how prepared I am to cook.

Anyways, I'm clean. I'm feeling okay. In a (probably temporary) period of acceptance about things. The thing I am most hung up on is this apartment. I don't want to move. I don't think I'd be able to find another apartment anyways so I have to figure out how to make the money work. Which ultimately means being more financially responsible than I've ever been. And is that actually possible? Jury is out. But I'll figure it out, because that's all there is.

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I have a hard time with this job for a great many reasons, many more important than this one. But today the one that's getting me is that it makes me unhappy to see the sun rising earlier. The sun was out before I got to work. The days are getting longer! The long sad winter is coming to an end. Great news.

But it means that spring is coming. It means that my long shift, six day work weeks are around the corner. When keeping a distance between work and my personal life feels impossible. All of my free time is used towards trying to keep myself alive. And I know this is ultimately dramatic. I will be fine, because I always am. I will complain and rant and scream along to loud music on the drives home, and in a couple months it will be audit season. Which will start the cycle over.

At least this time my time is my own. I only have Pretzel to worry about. I won't need to get up early to take the dog out. I won't have to be strategic about what days I work late to make sure the car is available or the dog isn't being left alone too long. Messes will be my own.

Anyways. I need to get gas after work tonight and I have an oil change booked in the morning. I need to figure out how to talk to the mechanic about my tires and potentially ordering new ones. Although I may just do the seasonal switch for now and buy new tires next winter, not that I'll have any more money at that point. But I can be in denial about it for now, because I'm fairly sure I'll need to do my brakes at some point before the end of the year.

Halfway through the week. I took Monday and Tuesday off to recoup from what I'm sure will be an emotionally exhausting weekend. I will regret it when I come back to a stack of shit on Wednesday, but that's later me's prpblem

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Mashed potatoes for brains today. Trying to force myself through getting anything accomplished because I don't really have a choice. Need to submit a certification renewal by the end of the week, prep to run a new meeting full of all of the most annoying men on Wednesday, and of course keep on top of all of the regular production paperwork that is going on.

Also let's not talk about the absolute disaster that is my nose right now. Just 75 pimples in a nose shaped trenchcoat. My skin is giving up on me as I continue to pretend I don't know what a vegetable is and live fueled exclusively on sugar, caffeine, and spite.

Gave my brother a pep talk about not going down with the ship that is my mother. He was explaining to me all the "research" (AI) he'd done about her situation and all the possibilities. I was like... bestie she needs a lawyer and I do not want to be involved and I don't want you to be involved. We are not doing this. He says he hears me, but I know he feels guilty about walking away from her and my grandpa. But it feels fruitless to me. She isn't learning or willing to learn... or even be honest, at this point.

Anyways. Happy Monday, I suppose.

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First desk at home selfie ✌️ Had therapy today and it went mostly how I was expecting. Cried some more, which was a surprise although shouldn't have been. Validation is nice but it's also annoying. Just fix it! (I know that's not actually how it works).

I have an emotion log to complete now. Which I know is important, but still don't really want to do, lol. For now I'm going to turn love is blind on and disappear into coral island. B is away for most of the rest of the day for her niece's hockey game(s), which is probably for the best.

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Today's selfie brought to you by my greasy hair and feeling suddenly incredibly overwhelmed at work. Also I'm SO bloated it's very uncomfortable.