Summary: Bucky still loves (Y/N), they were together in Bucharest after Civil war, now she gets married what is he going to do...
Warnings: humor, angst, slighty violence, flashbacks, drama, alot of gifs
A/N: Unsure if I just leave it like that..Deciding on your feedback :D Hope y’all like it!! GIFS are not mine
The name Matthew Grimes is in no realation to anyone else.
(Y/N) (Y/L/N) - Your name, your last name
“And then a unicorn saved me from the chitauri in the coffeeshop last weekend where I brought the magic beans.“ Steve said to Bucky who just nodded, clearly not listening to a word Steve said.
“Did you even listening to a word I said?“ he said taking him the newspaper away.
“Yeah. Something about Tony being a diva...”
“Bucky what’s up with you this morning?“
He didn’t listen to him because the article in the newspaper caught his attention. It was a wedding Announcement from (Y/N) (Y/L/N) and Matthew Grimes. She had history with Bucky in Bucharest.
“(Y/N) is- is getting married“ his face got pale just by the thought about it. He didn’t talked to you since Steve found him.
“You should talk to her you, she deserves to know“ Steve said. He knew what Bucky did and he thought you don’t deserve this but Bucky made this decision and he respected that even if he didn’t understood his reasons for that.
“No I can’t, It’s too late.“ he said. His face was pale and the memories of rushing back in front of his eyes.
He met you on a small market in Romania as he brought plums almost every day and he saw you buying at first fresh flowers, then you would have a small talk with a one of the sellers. Than you would look around the market until you disappeared from his sight. Not to be creepy but he saw you everyday from there and one afternoon he saw you in the hallway of his apartment building. Of course at first he thought it would be hydra. They could send someone to watch him or to get him back so he took matter in his own hands. He surprised her as she wanted to get in her apartment.
He came from behind, one hand around her neck and one over mouth to keep her from screaming.
“Who the fuck are you and why are you following me?“ he took his hand slowly away from her mouth again to talk.
“What? I- I am (Y/N) and- and I’m not following you..I- I swear.I live here! Do you want my money. Take it please...“ she said with shaky voice. He could hear her heartbeat, she wasn’t lying she was just afraid, slowly he took his hands away again and stepped away from her.
“God I’m sorry. I- uhm being paranoid..I go now. sorry again.“ he breathed out and made his way towards the stairs to his apartment. She stayed there for a few moments still in shock before she unlocked her front door.
He felt bad for what he did so he brought her a bouquet of flowers and placed them in front of her door with a card.
Sorry again. Didn’t mean to creep you out.
From this day you met a few times again in the hallway or on the market and somehow you gained trust towards each other again. He learned that you’re in Bucharest for an internship. He even said why he was there. Not all but enough to understand his behaviour. After a few months of a friendship,watching movies, going to the market together you fell asleep on his couch during a documentary that he wanted to watch. He had nightmare this night and you could comfort him somehow.
“You ok again?“ you asked sitting beside him. He only nodded and slightly smiled at you. He didn’t understand how you still stayed after everything he told you, after this nightmare and mostly after he attackted you. He always remembered the others who looked at him on the streets. They had all the same expression. They were all scared but not you, you helped him alot. You weren’t scared neither you stayed because you had pity for him. You just didn’t see what he or the others saw in him. Not a monster, not hydra, not the winter soldier. You just him, just Bucky.
“Ok..I- uhm I should go to my apartment again“ before you could stand up from the floor he grabbed your wrist.
“Could you maybe...stay?“
“Of course“ you smiled and he made place for you to lay down. After you got under the sheets with him you let him lay his head on your chest since there wasn’t much place for two person and it was much more comfortable for him. You often laid like this before so that wasn’t really new for you. It was just the air between the both of you. You didn’t wanted to force him into something after everything he been through and he didn’t really know if he still was capable of this. He loved you and you loved him but he didn’t know if he was ready. Bucky fell asleep to the sound of your heartbeat and you too after you heard his soft snores. The next morning you woke up first, you waited for Bucky to wake up to not disturb him from his sleep, he looked like he needed it so you rested your eyes a bit longer.
After that night followed more night and somehow you couldn’t live without each other anymore. He was still distant but you understood he needed time. You loved him and he loved you, there wasn’t a doubt about that. You said to him that you loved him multiple times even if you just said “Shut up” and smiled. He knew even then you meant “I love you”. That was a time in his life that he felt happy and loved again (besides steve). But of course that had to end someday. He thought he was ready to start something with you but a part of him didn’t let that happen. He always thought how could someone so smart, beautiful and with such an good soul love him? After all he did? He didn’t deserve that but he didn’t wanted to just run away. He loved her but that changes as he came back from the market and saw the daily newspaper, you were still at work and Steve stood in his apartment.
He had his notebook in his hands until he turned around and saw him.
“You know me?“ he asked. Bucky couldn’t believe that he was standing there in his Captain America suit, just like in the pictures he found.
“You’re Steve. I’ll read about you in a museum.“ he knew that he was there about the attack in vienna
“I know you’ are nervous and you have plenty of reasons to be but you’re lying“
He hated that everyone thought it was him. Just as it looked like he had it under control someone had to destroy it again...
“I wasn’t in vienna. I don’t do this anymore“
“ Well the people who think you do are coming here now and they are not planning on taking you alive“
He started to panic. He had to run again and he didn’t know if he saw you again. How you looked besides him when he woke up, and how you smiled in you sleep, how you would dance around the kitchen or how you looked when you were lost in a good book. What would you think if he never came back? He would break you heart but he wouldn’t get out of this without a fight.
“That’s smart. Good strategy.“
He heard them coming up the stairs, he took his glove of his metal hand. Ready to fight.
“This doesn’t have to end in a fight buck“ Steve said again.
“It always ends in a fight.”
Soon after the police stormed in the room from all sides. He and steve kept fighting them but he couldn’t stay there so he ran down the stairs and jumped from the balcony to a another building. To cut it short..
then was chased by it, steve and the police. The big bird joined. The cat destroyed his motorcycle and they all got caught from the police.
He was held in this box and got asked from this things from this weird dude.
Turneed out the dude is hydra and he turned him again to the winter soldier. He even asked about you and if he knew about you than it means you are in danger...because of him.
He fought against Steve, the blonde, the cat, the bird and Iron man and black widow until he almost got away with an helicopter but Steve held him down and they both fell into the river were he blacked out and Steve saved him. He is Bucky again. Anyway after all this fighting he lost his arm and decided that it would be the best for everyone to get back under. Even if that meant that you thought Bucky is dead. He made this decision to let you have an normal life. To be safe. It made his heart ache with pain but it was better like that he thought.
After you found the apartment completely destroyed and the daily newspaper which you didn’t believe in what they said. You thought he was dead. I mean he would have come back after whatever happened right?
You waited and waited until your internship was going to an end and you had to get back to New York. You didn’t wanted to leave, you always had the thought in the back of your head that he would came through your door. You wouldn’t even be mad at him. Just the thought about him being dead just from the one to the other day made you nauseous. You missed him and everything he left was his notebook and a polaroid you made with him while you laid on the couch and he left you too. You never wanted to move on but your friends kept dragging you into bars and said he would have wanted that. That is were you met Matthew. He was really nice and probably a good man but he wasn’t Bucky. You agreed to go on a date with him and than he didn’t let go and out of this came a relationship. You loved him, you really did but just not like you loved Bucky and he was always going to have a special place in your heart. After a year and a half Matthew took you out into a really fancy restaurant which you hated and he asked you out of nowhere if you want to be his wife. You struggled with yourself, you always imagined that could’ve been Buckyasking you that but he was dead so you said yes and well today is your wedding.
You stood in front of your Mirror and looked you up and down. You are happy but not as happy as normally someone would feel on his wedding day. All you wanted to do was go back in time to run into Bucky’s arms and never let go. No matter if you had to run away with him for the rest of your life at least it would have been with him. A knock on your door dragged you out of your thoughts. As you opened the door your eyes widened and you thought that you would pass out any second or that you had hallucinations, You couldn’t move or breath anymore. This couldn’t be real.
