Funny
My therapist asked me if I wanted a boyfriend and I said okay. She also gave me this music soothing CD thing last week and I asked her if it would make me want to pee because it sounded like it was near a brook or something. Came back yesterday after listening to it and told her it didn't. Idk. I laughed a bit at it. According to my parents, the past couple days I've been happy because I've been laughing. Idk if I was happy or not. Can't even recognize it until someone tells me apparently. Trying to teach my dad how to play League of Legends. At least he's interested and trying. I know it's horrible when you first start. So daunting. I was so bad when I first started. XD now I'm somewhat decent lol Apparently my doctor's appointment is next week. So I just had therapy yesterday and eye doc appointment the day before. Which my eye doctor appointment was also scheduled for next week too but she decided to squeeze me in last minute. Decided to get the pupil dilation part of the exam. Oh my gosh. It screwed with me big time man. My pupils were HUGE. I was like anime yo. And it didn't wear off until this morning. That's over 32 hours with my eyes not changing sizes normally and things being out of focus! Three drops in each eye and I don't even know what she put in them. Ahhhh such a trip afterwards. I felt kind of like losing my balance when walking so I had to hold onto one one of my parents the rest of the time shopping. XD things so bright too. Geez I don't want to do that for a long time. XD hopefully these glasses will actually work and not make my eye twitch and give me a headache. Trying to get in contact with an EMDR therapist that specializes in trauma and stuff. So I won't be seeing my neurofeedback therapist if I see the EMDR therapist. I think I've been accepted for Medicaid. I got SNAP. I lost three pounds since my meltdown last week. My Buspirone was increased to 7.5mg twice a day. Finished the "I Am Number 4" series. Really good series. Glad they didn't kill my favorite character. Hate when they do that. I feel a lot better than I did last week. Not so hopeless and despairing. Midol does not affect me at ALL. I deleted my skype since I don't talk to people on there anymore. Kinda sad. Been using that since... 2009? Used to be on that thing like every day in a call with a friend and now poof. And that Christian friend who said he'd always be around for me went poof as well. So that's always fun. At least I don't feel much so it's not bugging me too much. I was expecting it anyways. I knew it was a lie so I just waited for it. Anyways, I'm just going to watch stuff on Netflix now. Then nap. Just like every day. My eyes are still tired xD
