#freindships

[mooshie-blue]

No matter how good I am, there will always be someone better.

[irrelevant-little-speck]

Me when my two bestnfreinds were fighting and asked me to pick a side

[lovequotes-7]

[mrkmciver]

# Thank GOD

[dreamy-okapi]

I ramble about relationships and over-rationalisation

So I’ve been feeling pretty fucking bad about myself lately and I’ve come to a conclusion about the way I handle my relationships with people, that conclusion being that I’m doing it wrong.

I don’t think I have a proper understanding of how relationships (be they platonic, familial or whatever) “work”. I don’t know how they start, how to maintain them properly or why people get into them when they don’t have to. This lack of understanding I think is natural- as my counsellor said when I spoke to her about it, I’m “trying to rationalise something that cannot be rationalised”.

But I still try to rationalise my relationships, and that just bites me in the ass. For example, take me and my best friend (not naming any names here, but you know who you are)- I look at the level of closeness I have with them and I think “how did I get here?” and I look for logical reasons why this person has chosen to trust and care about me- some way that this benefits them or something I did to warrant it- and I find nothing. And rather than accepting that these things can just happen, I think to myself “I didn’t earn this” “They shouldn’t be treating me like this” “I don’t deserve this” “I need to do better so that I deserve this”. And then that sends me into a spiral of self-hate very much like the one I’m stuck in right now. It sucks and I need to stop doing it. 

[theunicornthedragonandthepa-blog]

introducing Jessie the Unicorn, Tullie the Dragon and GeeJay the Parrot, friends forever!

for all fairy folk and especially for @followthepaintbrush

[beautiful-sensitive-soul-blog]

You labeled the poison as love making me believe this is love   I hope you cared enough to tell me to put on a breathing mask

- // love poison flows through my veins // @beautiful-sensitive-soul

[fatphobiabusters]

Welp, I think I just drove a wedge in a 15+ year friendship, because after making my feelings known about how I'm tired of negative body image talk and after showing how my (300+ lb) self is going to try giving no fucks & loving what she's got, my thin friend just can't understand why I got mad when she complained about her lack of a 'beach body'. Pardon me while I go cry angry tears.

I’m sorry this happened :(  That was really shitty of her. 

You’d think she would at least be willing to not say fatphobic things around you, even if she’s not ready to actually confront her own fatphobia.

You deserve to feel safe around your friends. 

-Mod Siarl