#fuckitall

[z-willz]

the constant guilt i feel is immeasurable, everyone that i used to like hates me and it is all my fault

[erikjarnberg]

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[nausiccarequiem]

I accomplished nothing in 2021 and now that the year is over I sit here wondering how long it's been since I've spent a day not in survival mode. Lucky to be alive is the only way to describe this year. How do I hope for something better in 2022 ? Is there any reason why I should hope for something better in 2022 ?

[psychotic-dreamer7]

I hate you. And that's all there is to it.

[d1scoc0wg1rl]

ive found my friends, they’re in my head

[darthstitch]

*sigh*

SPOILERS

All that's left to cap off this trash dumpster fire will be the 10 billion fanfics rhapsodizing over how rey will become pregnant with krylo wrong's tragedy babies through the power of their Force kiss.

Let me just turn on all my blockers so I can trawl through AO3 in peace.

All our beloved characters - old and new - deserved better than this.

I spoiled myself, btw, because I really didn't want to sit in a theater snarling under my breath about all the dumbass writing choices. Best damn decision of my life.

[mysynthfetish]

COVfefe

Maybe that bloated orange buffoon was having a premonition when he came out with that? Ya think? COVid-19 and whatever the hell the fefe is. Festering fecktard perhaps? Who knows. Good job on him though, biggest failure ever, hands down. Believe me. Many are saying so. And now I see that the UK has their own idiot in chief doing very drumpfian things as well. Great holy fuck on a stick already, can we just be done with the dumbasses in high places? WHERE'S THE REVOLUTION? I'll be sitting here on the sidelines hoping for the end of humanity. Yay misanthropy!!!

Anyway. Today I enjoyed one of my three "work from home" days. Like I do any work at work as it is. Ho. Lee. Fuk. Nah I got shit done. But all the while, sitting here in the Lair of Nefarious Machinery, I was looking at said machinery and wondering what the point of it all was. I'm experiencing a kind of bipolar disorder with music production lately. I'll go from being super happy with the setup, making little snippets of tracks that are quite good, maybe the best I've ever come up with, then days like today I just look at it all and feel like screaming at the top of my lungs BEGONE THOU! O PESTILENCE AND BLACK HOLE OF TIME AND MONEY!!!! No motivation to even look at the shit, much less turn it on and try to arrange my snippets into actual tracks. What a conundrum.

Yeah so in my last post, I slapped in a photo of the setup, and hardly any real time has passed but nonetheless here we are with a bit different layout and some different gear in the equation. Here's the latest incarnation. Purple mood provided by IKEA LED strip lights. Ah, looking at this kind of makes me want to turn shit on and start messing around. But actually being here in the room with the stuff, I dunno, I wonder where the urge went. I think it has something to do with me just being less and less tolerant of unforeseen variables anymore. Such as dying mixers and gear with issues. I am slowly whittling down the setup, seeing off things that aren't working, as I find my lack of motivation creeping into the repair/mods part of things too. So, yeah, dying mixers. I was using a pair of Soundcraft Spirit Folio 18 Si mixers, as they have 8 stereo and 2 mono channels, which is something a bit out of the ordinary and I have loads of stereo things. But first the main inserts started to die, so I replaced the jacks. Then, the aux2 on the secondary mixer started sending signal even with all the send knobs zeroed (what the actual fuck). So I saw this behemoth of a Yamaha, rather like the one we have in the auditorium at work, for a decent price, and thought yeah ok let's see. I was really second guessing myself after buying it, before it got here, as I wondered if I wasn't just jumping from one set of problems into another. But so far, everything checks out fine. VERY solidly built, sounds very good, and the two built-in SPX effects processors are surprisingly useful and high quality. Here's the thing almost by itself.

You can see my shitty ghetto ass magnetic cutout strips labeling the channels there. Better than masking tape I suppose. The on/off buttons are a bit slower action than I'd like, as they're good for muting a channel, but you can't really use them for live mutes on the fly like I wanted to. Maybe I just need to get used to them. I dunno. And I dunno how long this slump will last. I seem to be in more than out of the slump lately. Corona related? I dunno that either. Anyway... hope y'all are as good as you can be wherever on this cursed planet you may be. See ya next time.

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