#fuckstudy

[noodledesk]

hello everyone :) i’ve really been enjoying using my dashboard format in notion, so i thought i’d share the template for you all to use as well ✨💖 enjoy!

[obsidianstudy]

april 20, 2019.

what’s up, my dudes! figured i should probably post something to prove i’m still alive and kicking.

q 4 u (question for you): what’s everyone’s favorite cafe/coffee shop go to snack? 

[shanstudies]

Hey everyone! It’s been a long time since I’ve posted on here...oops. I’ve been very busy, and for my comeback I’ve decided I’m going to post a video. It will be a “holiday weekend in my life” video. In it I will be talking about

-study timelapses

-how I’m setting up my bullet journal for a crazy semester (20 credits while working 20 hours a week+extracurriculars. pls send help)

-cleaning timelapses??

-and obviously days in my life

I’m super excited to come back! Now that I’m slowly figuring out a time schedule and a routine I feel more comfortable starting to post again. 

[academiics]

[ 13 Nov 2018 ]

studied at this pretty cafe yesterday. today i’m too sick to leave my bed even though i have so much to study for, and seeing my friends studying (on their if stories) just makes me feel worse haha :’)

[arystudies]

2019 calendars are here!

All 12 months are now available for download via dropbox. Pick from Sunday or Monday weeks, from 4 colors, and grid or blank backgrounds! 

Thank you so much to everyone that’s used my little calendars. You bring me so much joy. I hope my calendars bring you the same happiness. May your 2019 be full of many successes, triumphs, and progress. ♡

Download here!

[fuckstudy]

Hey.

It’s been a while, I know. How’s things?

To be completely honest, I’m uncertain as to what I want to do with this platform anymore.

I was a student when I started this blog. I look back at the list of things that I wanted to do, and the things that worried me.

And now? 

What happens you get thrust from the proverbial womb of academia to the rat race hell that is the “real world”? 

Well, in many ways, a lot. 

And yet, my insecurities remain a familiar shadow.

TL;DR I’m now @byelaw on wordpress, and @lawsbye on insta and twitter.

Come and say hi, and let me know how you’re going.

It’s a strange feeling, knowing that I’ve ticked off most, if not all, the things I wanted to accomplish.

Granted, the list was pretty short. It went something like this:

Finish thesis

Pass, just fucking graduate dear god

Get a job

Go to the gym just please get out of bed

Unsurprisingly, these items corresponded with the things that worried me.

It’s strange, how much can change. And how little it feels.

I started working. In one respect this adopted structure and discipline has provided me with the focus and the purpose that I felt that I otherwise lacked as a student. All those cover letters, applications, references, interviews, the nights of crippling self-doubt, the feeling of achievement  – all of that for this nine to five (more like eight to six but hey, who’s counting) [1].

Yet, despite ticking off all the items on the “to do list”, my list of worries stubbornly stayed the same. They just morphed and adapted to my new routine.

I felt like I reached the peak of the mountain, yet was so exhausted and clouded by the thoughts of “what’s next” and “is this it” to appreciate the view.

Alongside with my familiar friends – insecurity and imposter syndrome –  came a question that I’d been avoiding for most of my formal academic life:

What am I outside what I do?

It’s ironic, in a way. Once I got the job I so wanted, the bedrock I thought would be the foundation to everything else, I sought to define myself in ways outside of it – outside of the very thing I’d been working so hard just to get.

It reflects that “results oriented” hey, just let me get through this – let me prove to myself that I can achieve this mindset I had.

And I didn’t know how to start that process. How to extricate “what I do” from “who I am”.

My nervousness, my doubt, my uncertainty made me hesitant to blog. To engage in this community.

Because I wanted to define myself outside of “work” – yet this blog was heavily focused on the law, studying etc.

I didn’t want you to just see me as a student now turned lawyer.

But then I realised, I never really gave you the chance to see me outside of that sphere.

Heck, I didn’t let myself share that.  

Somehow I forgot that this was a platform through which I discovered new things and learn from you. All of you. I get caught up in your stories, your “journey”, both the good and the “what the fuck is happening with my life”.  

I thought that I had to post a highlight reel. And for the longest of times, I haven’t really felt that way.

But hey, fuck that.

This is my behind the scenes.

And maybe through that process, I’ll find out what I want to do.

So what does that mean?

For starters, there might be a bit more writing, research on things I’m currently interested in – places I want to go, things I want to learn.

Think of it as a written pintrest page.

I’m moving some older things to wordpress, because tumblr seems like a dumpster fire. The weird thing is I prefer the interaction on tumblr so it’ll be a cross post type deal.

With time, I’ll also move more things tentatively to instagram.

And slowly open up the inbox again.

So yeah.

As cliched as it sounds, my word for 2019 is “discovery”.

And I guess this is a beginning.

After all, it’s all just a series of continuous beginnings.

Thanks for sticking with me.

[1] AS AN ASIDE, I’M NOT SAYING THIS AS A BIG FUCK YOU OR HUMBLE BRAG TO PEOPLE WHO DON’T HAVE JOBS OR ANYTHING; I’VE BEEN THERE. I’LL PROBABLY BE THERE AGAIN. THE FRUSTRATION, ANXIOUSNESS AND THE DOUBT IS, SOMETHING I STILL CANNOT ADEQUATELY EXPRESS.  AND I’M HESITANT TO TALK ABOUT MY SUCCESSES (AKA FINDING A JOB) WHEN I FEEL THE CLASSIC HALLMARKS OF IMPOSTER SYNDROME. LET’S BE REAL, WORK IS KICKING ME IN THE ARSE – THERE’S GOOD DAYS AND BAD DAYS AND DAYS WHERE I QUESTION WHAT I’VE DONE FOR OVER HALF A DECADE. BUT, CAN WE SHARE THAT, RATHER THAN PUTTING EACH OTHER DOWN? BECAUSE THE COMPETITIVE JOB HUNT IRL IS HARD ENOUGH.

[studypurple]

Hi everyone! My name is Elle, and this is my new studyblr account! When I was younger, I attempted to make a studyblr under @writerandscientist under the name Em, but that kind of failed HAHAHAHAHA. So here I am, back again with a fresh start with my new studyblr, studypurple!

Here are some fun facts about me:

I’m 15 years old, entering grade 11 in high school.

I go to a science high school in the Philippines, meaning that i am required to take a science-related course in the future

My main classes for grade 11 are biology and chemistry.

I love reading books and writing, and I’m currently reading Everyday by David Levithan.

I also love music, and I’m currently into musicals (chat me if you wanna talk about heathers, be more chill, newsies, mamma mia, into the woods and more!)

I’m currently watching b99, the flash and the good place (chat me if you wanna talk about those too!) i also watched the librarians, santa clarita diet, trinkets and a series of unfortunate events hehehe

some studyblrs i admire include:

@studyquill huhu i love you so much! i love watching your youtube channel and your bujo is soooo pretty <3</li>

@fuckstudy u are such a mood and your posts are soooo helpful huhu

@areistotle i’ve been following you for soooo long and your masterposts have some of the best tips everrr!!!!

@emmastudies u put so much effort into your blog and i love u and the phone n desktop wallpapers you make every month! u are so amazing!!

@studyign ur youtube videos are soooo aesthetic !! i watch your vids all the time for inspiration hehe thank you so much for them <3</li>

Anyway, that’s all for now. I hope to make more friends here <3 thank you for reading this hehehe </p>

[optomstudies]

I get good grades, I suck at Algebra and Bio, but I just study harder on those subjects. History and English, on the other hand, have always been just one of the things i'm good at. I don't study, and I ace every test. It's the school work that gets me. I'm always trying to do good in those other classes, I forget about those two. Now I have 2 D's in classes I should be getting A's in. Any advice on how to bring them up? 1 has hw every night,and the other we rarely do anything Part 1

(part 2) I've only forgotten to turn in a few assignments that i'm unable to make up. It's just hard to focus on classes i'm good at, you know? I just don't want to fail because I got a big head. I mean, I'm proud of myself, because like I said, I study a lot better in the classes that I NEED to. I have a B+ in each of those classes. (Which is a big improvement from last year's confused-as-fudge child) But I just don't have time for English and History, and all I see is "oh study more"

Hmmmm, a bit of a bitter pill to swallow, but are you really sure you’re good at a subject that you’re getting Ds in? Or is that just your ego? 🤔 You can be naturally gifted in a certain area, but if you’re not paying attention in class or revising it, you’ll still perform badly. It’s like the saying goes, 

hard work beats talent when talent doesn’t work hard

Honestly it’s all about balance, not about studying more. Like I mentioned before, I used to be really good at understanding concepts in biology and agriculture but had absolutely no talent in English, so I spent about 3 times more time on English than I did in other subjects -- 

Pseudomaths, but 3 times 0 is 0. My point is there’s no use in studying excessively in 1 subject and not doing anything for another subject, because you end up shooting yourself in the foot like you’ve done now, and get a B+ in Algebra/Biology and Ds in History/English. 

It’s much better if you take a bit off time off Algebra/Biology and get B- in them and As in History/English. 

Use a diary if you’re forgetting to turn in assignments - you’re not paying attention in History/English if you don’t even remember when assignments are due. Let the diary do the work for you instead. 

If one of the subjects has homework every night then you need to schedule the time into your study sessions. I’d advise you to do it as soon as you get home and then forget about it if you hate thinking about it so much. 

Anyway, buck up and hope that helps! ^_^