Future Pari Headcanon
Dear Remus,
I'm sorry I haven't come to see you lately, but I see the pain in your eyes when you look at me, and you turn white as a sheet, as if the full moon has come early. I know I look like him, our smiles are the same, and I have his big eyes, and it hurts me just to look in the mirror, so I've been trying not to put you through that pain.
Nothing feels right anymore Moony. My brother's dead and we couldn't have a proper funeral, all that was left was his finger. And James and Lily are gone, poor Harry left all alone. And Sirius...I thought I knew him. I know him. He wouldn't do this. He loved us, all of us. He would never do that, he would never set anything but a playful hand on Peter...why am I talking about him like he's still here? They're gone...they're all gone. I'm losing my mind.
Is it wrong that I still love him? I cannot wrap my head around it. Tell me I'm not crazy Remus...I need someone to tell me I'm not losing my mind. I think Pete's haunting me if you want the truth. I see him around corners sometimes. He's not dead...he can't be. This wasn't him, I know it wasn't.
Remus, I need you. I know it's hard to see me, but I can't hide in this place any longer. Any person who I ever thought to be a friend knows about this place. You remember the stories right? After we came back from the summer and Sirius and I would talk over each other with our silly stories just for me to tell you later that night when he was gone so you could actually listen...I miss those days...I miss them more than anything. Can we go back? If you can't see me I understand...but I need you.
Love
Your friend,
Pari Pettigrew.