Since I know no one on this platform but have still chronicled my life in small ways here for the last… 15 years? I think I’ll put these here.
In less than two months a baby will exit my body. It’s not something I ever really thought I’d do, and I certainly didn’t plan to be doing this year. But here we are. I took some Polaroids in the hopes that I can look at them one day and remember the things I was thankful for, even though I was both nervous and scared to meet/raise the human I created and grew with my own body.
Things (associated with pregnancy) that I’m thankful for:
1. After trying (more like wanting to and not putting in the proper effort to do so) to get sober for years, when I found out I was pregnant, I stopped everything cold-turkey and haven’t slipped once.
2. Finally built and stuck to a healthy bed time routine that’s helped me sleep and feel better overall.
3. Improved my diet and my desire to put healthy and nutritious things in my body.
4. Finally properly hydrating myself.
5. Making cool, unique improvements to my home so that my kid will dig the vibe in here.
6. Learning to accept the changes in my body after struggling with body image my entire life. Even though I know I’m growing a human, I still get wildly insecure about my bod.. but I’m finally getting better. I took maternity photos and posted them on the inter web!
7. The opportunity to freely design and paint whatever I want in a room that will be dedicated to a child, there are no rules!
8. Chocolate tastes amazing.
9. Learning I can get through entire work days on a limited amount of caffeine, sometimes none, it is possible.
10. Being pregnant makes older women who have been pregnant super excited. At first I thought it was annoying, but I’ve come to learn to love and appreciate all the unique stories of each individual woman when they share their experience. No matter what happened, or how wild it was for them at the time, they tell their stories with such passion and nostalgia. One day I will be one of them, and often think which parts of my story I’ll choose to share.
