#fuuuuck.

[strin-g]

the state of crk tbd right now

[tonydaddingham]

so... do we finally realize that the metraton chose aziraphale for his plan maybe, in part, because he literally declared war with hell??? by throwing his halo??? which makes him "a leader"

............OH.

[nickyurinico]

shading this is going to send me to the hosptial oh myogd.

[sixbigideas]

while unpacking, i found a few entries of a journal i kept in 2020. i was just starting with a new therapist and this is what i wrote:

“[in next week's appointment] i will be the stars-aligned truest version of myself and i will somehow articulate that i never feel like the same me twice, and that i certainly don’t feel like the izzy she met last week. that izzy was… i’ve paused too long. young? that felt like a me from ten years ago, who couldn’t even say the word ‘anxiety.’ […] not me.” / “[the therapist] taught me progressive muscle relaxation. […] i don’t remember enough how it went so i’ve got to look up a guide on youtube.”

it would be 2 more years before it even crossed my mind that i could have DID. and 2 more after that to actually accept it. but i was literally describing switching, with amnesia and all. jesus christ, i even know now exactly which izzy i was in that first appointment.

there were a few more entries after that that were truly heartbreaking -- i was so confused. i was so desperate to understand what was different about me, what was 'wrong' with me. i wanted the answer no matter what it was, so i could take it and look it right in the face and accept it and embrace it, so i could stop being so scared and ashamed all the fucking time.

it took five years, but we got there.

[heartonxions]

gajevyuri cowgirls……….

[faebriel]

its all booooo duo names suck duo names are excessive until you dip into any other fandom and have zero way of finding friendly guy content unless its ao3 and their noble ampersand

[therealslimstrider]

I was feeling like real hot shit with spamming Dragon Dance with Dragonite until No Guard Stone Edge Machamp showed up.

[domesticabuser]

im. single again