#gabdiel

[gabriel-gabdiel]

Little did everyone know that 2019 is the Year of the Spoony. 

Dr. Insano Force Lightning by Gabdiel

[lunardude]

It's not that I'm easily influenced

I’ve just always been that guy that needs a reminder for those times when life gets discouraging, even with the things that I’m most interested in I still need a nudge after a while. One bad thing about me is that when I have a goal that takes a lot of time to complete, it’s gives me more opportunities for my mind to wander.. Those thought processes are what become self-destructive and they also become the moments where I need influence the most. This in turn leads me to fear.. Fear of the surroundings I have put myself in and whether or not those surroundings (people, environments, etc) will know what I need to hear in order to keep my spirit strong. A good thing about me is that I consider myself to be a strong character but when I’m weakest is usually when I’m the most lost…

[lunardude]

My taste in music though..

I don’t understand how I can Go from reggaeton, to Miley Cyrus, to drake, to beyonce, to 90s, and somewhow end up in indieville… This is just one of those things about me that I wish I had an explanation for, not only for when people ask, but to help me better understand myself. Oddly enough, my music hopping works for me, it’s almost like a flow of emotions that comes pouring out violently, dragging out every emotion I’ve ever felt with it.

[lunardude]

Thought of the day

I'm man enough to admit that my goal right now is work everyday on getting over my immature, neurotic, over-thinking and just be...

[lunardude]

Can't help but feel that my faith and emotional strength is being tested..

And i may crack here and there, but I refuse to ever give up completely. Its just not an option because the potential and good spirit I hold is almost contagious. I am my own worst enemy at the end of the day, and I think I'm overdue for some self chat(not out loud.. ok maybe outloud too) and re-enlightenment.

Now to find my catalyst...

[lunardude]

I think Im back

Well,  the last couple of weeks have been pretty crazy but I think im finally ready to pick myself up n move foward as life always does... Here's a quick recap on the road trip my minds been driving on in the last 2 weeks:

-Suffered the tragic loss of my father (RIP) which led to an unexpected yet eventful trip to Puerto Rico

-Almost lost one of my best friends forever, literally

-Parted ways with my (ex)boyfriend

-Smoked a million blunts

-Havn't been to school or work in 2 weeks...

So there you have it, Ive gone from sadness, to keeping it together, to totally breaking down, to new levels of Faded, entered some happiness, and ALOT of lounging. My unexpected loss of my father truly brought out an incredible level of strength that I'm completely thankful of my friends and associates for. I got so much reaching out at such a weak time and im seriously touched by the love. My Puerto Rico trip was up and down with the emotions but i got my closure with my dad and I know now that he is in a much better place watching down. I grew closer to my family as well and I realized that going back to your roots can be such an amazing way to rediscover yourself and bond with those closest to you :) My family out in the island showed me an incredible time filled with nothing but drinks and love. I came back just in time for 4/20 in which I got comepletely SMACKED (def taking a break from that for a while) for and spent and amazing weekend with my cousin who came up from the City just to see me and got to spend some much needed catch up time with one of my best friends and got to have an enlightening convo with my other best friend. I think keeping myself surrounded by loved ones was the best way to let myself sort've crash and burn for a little bit. I've got these experiences, from loss, to love, to closure and I feel like I'm entering a new chapter of my life n although i cant say i'm at 100% just yet, I'm ready to get back in the game and start to embrace this change that I can practically feel like pushing me into but not without the guidance of Hope & Faith. Bottom line: Hope & Faith will always be there, even when i you cant find it within yourself, they will make themselves clear when you need them.

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Fucking Chem

Cheers to anyone whos ever bombed on an exam that was given ON THE FIRST DAY BACK FROM SPRING BREAK.... I'm ready to take that grade with pride

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Soo I decided booty pop at 3:30am...

Because this sexy reggaeton song came on on my iPod and I would up ripping you pajamas, I'll get my fatass back into bed now....