#gabylusays

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Summer 2023 was really pivotal for so many reasons.

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Feeling beautiful 🥰 thought I would enjoy the moment

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Reached my goal weight, and still lifting heavy 😛

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Some of us have become so identified with our weakness that we are blind to our strength.

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I had an eye opening experience last night that I am truly grateful for.

I went out with Kayla, but before I even left the house I wasn’t feeling it. But I thought my best friend just lost her brother so let me just try to be there for her, I’ll put how I feel aside and just do it.

But when we got there, it was this instant shift of energy. Everything inside me was like you don’t need to be here to show her you love her, you don’t need to be here because you think that is what someone else may be doing, listen to yourself and do what’s best for you.

It was really a weird thing to be feeling, usually I am a people pleasure, I would have listen to her pressure to drink, stay out and then woken up with immense regret.

But the impactful moment came first when I said I am not interested in drinking away my pain, and truly I rather go home, sleep and wake up for the gym. She looked puzzled but I was confident about it, I did hesitate because again usually I am a people pleaser so I would put how I feel aside for others but I eventually said, after a lot of internal back and fourth.

Hey I am calling an uber and going home. This isn’t for me, and definitely not where I want to be.

This might sound so silly to some, because maybe these type of things come easy.

But for me I have always lived in doubt of my own needs or desires, because what if the person gets mad? Or worse they don’t want to talk anymore?

But I said gurl do what’s best for you, what does it matter how others deal with these things. You aren’t them.

Felt great to grab that uber, go home and kick ass at the gym this morning.

I am honestly really proud of myself.

We love hard, spread kindness, but you are not responsible for saving others.

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One of my last gym selfies without my leg sleeve! 🥹 So excited for next Tuesday!

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So I’m a pound away from my goal weight! The gym really is therapy, instead of crying I am just spending more time at the gym.

Tumblr really is the goat. Nobody here to judge. Just me, myself and I.

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I wanna love you. I wanna see what they see but I can’t.

The little girl inside me is sad and Idk what to do rn.