girokuru
I'm sorry. This doesn't justify my behavior, but I've been hurt and low on spoons myself and haven't been able to control myself. That's why I've been lashing out at you. But, it was not okay.
I was talking to someone today and they helped me realize just how hurtful it all was to you. For instance, maybe I didn't think that drawing that picture of your kintype being murdered was that bad, but it WAS bad and it hurt you a lot. So I took it down from my header. I'm sorry.
And I'm sorry for being sassy, sarcastic, and ableist towards you. I did a bad job apologizing for the ableism the first time. But this time, I am not apologizing for coming off as ableist. I was ableist, I used ableist language, and I am sorry for it.
I know I haven't been acting like it, Cryptomegha, but I do care about your wellbeing. I always have. This drama is bad for both of us and needs to stop. I want to correct my actions. Please tell me what I can do, if anything can or needs to be done.
I don't expect forgiveness. You're not obligated to forgive me, after everything I did. But let's stop now, because at this point the only thing this drama accomplishes is hurt everybody involved.
I will still post on dramahound, but it'll be unrelated to the drama (just my own controversial opinions). I will no longer be responding to any asks about the drama publicly, so if anyone has any questions for me you'll have to do it off-anon, sorry. I'm making my apology, and I mean it. I won't drag this out any longer.
Please be okay, Cryptomegha. I'm sorry I put you through so much shit. You put me through some as well, but I'm not going to make this about me anymore.
Good bye. And take care.
