I just realized I've never written a fic just for the fun of it??? Like, I'm over here researching all these little details none of my readers really care about, and making sure my pacing isn't shit, and going back to ensure character interaction is only awkward and stilted when it's meant to be and???? This isn't fun??? I'm not enjoying this??? Why am I doing this??? This isn't ever going to be published, so???
I want to write, but I'm too much of a perfectionist to actually just have fun with it, and I'm just... I'm not having fun -- why do Iove this?








