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You know you're a painter when..

There are permanent tiny flecks of paint on your cell phone screen protector but you keep thinking they are dead pixels… -.-

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I swear I am not dead!

School pretty much is over for me now. My last exam is the 20th, I just had a work schedule change and am now adjusted to it and I am in the process of getting rid of some things I don't want anymore (so possible giveaways yay!!) I am going to be afk of sorts from the 22nd-26th due to a vacation of sorts. I will no doubt share some photos I take and the like. Though I will be out of country and I don't want to pay roaming fees ^^; ANYWAY. I am basically back, minus those little bumps I will be posting stuff once more. -throws glitter- Did anyof you miss me?

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Ugghhh

I am listening to the song "Texico Bitches" by Broken Social Scene and near the begining there is this thing that makes a pfffft noise and I THOUGHT IT WAS MY HEADPHONES DYING AND I SERIOUSLY HAD A SMALL HEART ATTACK.

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Listening to Howard Shore scores for LOTR while I pack to go to my convention. It makes for a pretty dramatic occasion.

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SEETHING WITH RAGE

Okay, so I know that I may have said a few wrong things here, and that this is going to be very long. But this needs to be put out there. I am so disappointed and upset that people think this is okay.

[12:30:07 AM] Mike Martin: how was your day? [12:30:38 AM] Buckbutts: It was alright [12:30:46 AM] Mike Martin: nothing fun eh? [12:32:11 AM] Buckbutts: Having a japanese exchange student stay with us for a month, but that is about it. [12:32:32 AM] Mike Martin: oh. tell me more about him/her? lol [12:32:55 AM] Buckbutts: I don't really know much about them, they just showed up today. [12:32:58 AM] Buckbutts: And her name is Akane [12:33:15 AM] Mike Martin: oh more than one? [12:33:31 AM] Buckbutts: Yeah there is about 30 of them. We have one. [12:33:47 AM] Mike Martin: oh lol. well be careful not to lose her [12:34:10 AM] Buckbutts: ..? [12:34:37 AM] Mike Martin: i dunno. just making it sound like you got a pet or something XD [12:41:12 AM] Buckbutts: Okay wow, first of all that is really fucking racist. They aren't pets. They are paying money to come to Canada to learn English. Secondly, is it because she is a woman or because she is another race that you think it is okay to put on your fedora and be a dudebro about her coming to stay here? For your information, I have already befriended her and one of her friends. I am really disgusted and amazed that you would say that about a human being, no matter the race/skin colour/gender Akane is a human being and for you to say that her coming to live with us for a month so that she can continue her school is like us getting a PET.. I am a little lost for words at this moment. You must either be intoxicated or depreived of sleep but that gives you no right or excuse to say what you just did. I am appalled. That one little sentence just pissed me off more than you can imagine. I don't even know what went through your head as you typed that, did you even think of how terrible and cruel of a thought that is? Like jesus fucking christ. I don't care if you were trying to make a joke you might as well have just said that the pajamas I was wearing when my step father raped me meant that I was 'asking for it' I cannot even believe that you just said that. I am literally so mad that I could cry right now Mike. If you continue to have thoughts like this about women or people of other races (I remember you saying that you don't like Asians don't even try and turn this around) I don't think that we can be friends. This is a big line. A line you know I have, and you just blatantly crossed it so far that I am so put off talking to you right now. Kindly piss off until you can actually have decent thoughts about other human beings around you. [12:42:10 AM] Mike Martin: HOLY FUCK CALM YOUR FUCKING TITS WOMAN. you just fucking blew it out of fucking proportion [12:42:52 AM] Mike Martin: your the one with a fucking problem jumping straight to conclusions [12:43:11 AM] Mike Martin: maybe you should get yourself checked if thats where you automatically go to [12:43:15 AM] Buckbutts: Are you serious right now? Did you even read what you just said? You are talking about a human being and degrading them down to being an animal of lower standing than us. [12:43:26 AM] Mike Martin: i never said an animal or anything [12:43:32 AM] Buckbutts: You said a 'pet' [12:43:32 AM] Mike Martin: you just assume thats what i ment [12:43:42 AM] Buckbutts: What the fuck else is a pet Mike? [12:43:46 AM] Mike Martin: yes i said pet cause i couldnt find a better work [12:43:59 AM] Mike Martin: someone you are giving a home to? looking after? [12:44:03 AM] Mike Martin: hospitality [12:44:05 AM] Buckbutts: What else is a pet other than a creature you see of lower standing than you on the evolutionary chain [12:44:13 AM] Mike Martin: rock? [12:44:28 AM] Buckbutts: You could have said something like 'oh wow that is so cool, I am happy that you get to have that experience.' [12:45:13 AM] Mike Martin: well great for you. you get to have someone from japan come stay over. its nothing new though. its happened to me already but from australia [12:45:26 AM] Mike Martin: i understand you are all happy about it but holy fuck you just fucking went all bitch on me [12:45:36 AM] Mike Martin: and secondly FUCK OFF aboutt he fedora shit. i fucking hate that shit [12:45:44 AM] Mike Martin: you fucking sexist bitch. it goes both ways you know. [12:45:58 AM] Mike Martin: you exploded out of nothing with nothing [12:46:06 AM] Mike Martin: just assuming im racist and sexist and shit [12:46:19 AM] Mike Martin: just one word i said cause i coudlnt find anything better [12:47:54 AM] Buckbutts: I didn't go all 'bitch' on you. And if you are trying to use that degrading term to put me down it isn't going to work. I called you out on a terrible and cruel thing to say. I don't care if you couldn't find a better word, what I am trying to get across to you is that calling another human being a /pet/ is so wrong that I cannot articulate how terrible that is. [12:49:18 AM] Mike Martin: i use bitch cause you bitching at me over the stupidest thing. you are just taking shit to another fucking level. and yes i used pet wrong. just saying dont want to lose someone you are fucking giving hospitality to then. fucking hell [12:50:05 AM] Mike Martin: you just started ranting onto other shit that was not even part of what i said. probably from one of your fucking stupid guy friends cause your of your fucking status there [12:51:37 AM] Buckbutts: Calling another human being a pet is the 'stupidest thing'? I am sorry I have a different threshold for things. I was not 'ranting' I was telling you albeit in a rather choice worded and colourful way, that what you had said was completely unacceptable. [12:52:00 AM] Buckbutts: Do you want to know what my status is about Mike? Would the knowledge of who my 'stupid guy friend' is clear things up for you a little more? [12:52:01 AM] Mike Martin: you assumed i insulted her gender, her skin colour, her race and all that shit [12:52:56 AM] Buckbutts: I was /asking/ you if those reasons were why you thought it was okay to call her a 'pet' I later verified that a human being of any sex/gender/race/skin colour/nationality/any category that they can fall into a PET is unacceptable. [12:53:41 AM] Mike Martin: you just wanted some long stupid rant to do so you can make yourself feel so fucking glorified and so fucking knowledgable and you are like this perfect non judgemental woman [12:59:28 AM] Buckbutts: Excuse me? Are you really trying to make me feel bad and are now moving the blame to me with false accusations of my own opinion of myself? I was calling you out on your terrible choice of words and comeplete utter lack of coherent thought. If you think that my so called 'rant' was long and stupid then I suppose there is no changing your mindset. But I want you to look back on this and read this conversation, perhaps when you are more level headed or older - hopefully a little wiser. I want you to remembe what I said, and what you said in return. Instead of apologizing you instead began to lash out and pick apart anything that you thought you could use to hurt my feelings. I am sorry that you think like this Mike, I hope you don't find this acceptable for long. I hope you get therapy. And not just for the fact that you want to bone your therapist or that she 'has a nice rack' as you told Elisha the other day. I hope you get help, I hope you better yourself. I hope you live a happy life and realize that humans are humans no matter what they look like or what they identify as, and with that right they should be treated as such - Equal. I am sad to say this, but I can no longer converse with you, because this has been the last straw. I am tired of your niceness to me with seemingly the only intent to complain about why you don't have a woman and that you are missing something in your life. You can only be there for so long with a person until it is pointless. I cannot help you if you are not trying to help yourself. Good-bye Mike.

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I find it really interesting how a show gives a little commercial preview of a 'shocking new episode' and if you don't care about the show you are like "Blegh that is stupid" half of the time, unless you get really interested in it. But then, if it was your favourite show, or if you had heard about it and were interested you would most likely create some form of noise and convulse in some form or another. I just find it is really interesting to see people's different reactions to different shows, it really shows what people are interested in and how they feel about things. Passionate energy is rather magnetic I think, if someone is so passionate about something to the point where they can hardly contain themselves and they want to show you that thing through positive and non-abusive measures then most often than not I will find myself listening to them, even if I do not know about what they are talking about, or if I don't like it. Just to listen and see how much they care and how they want to share their knowledge and love for such a thing. Just that alone, will have me listen.

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Man..

I cut two fingers on both hands today doing dishes, so if I spell anything wrong it is because I am typing with weird stubby band aid tips. I feel like those dogs with booties on their paws..

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I wonder if anyone gets really excited when they see I post a new thing, or when they see that I reblogged something of theirs. I do, I get happy when I know that someone liked something of mine enough to share it with the people they know.