I'm a little shy! But I would like to express my amazement and admiration! A while ago I found your Shadow Chase art, I loved it and became a fan, you create very funny stories and your art is beautiful, but that's not the point, I started following you because of that, but then I realized that you have many others projects and You are also very busy with your personal life. My question is how is everything organized and planned to advance a project despite academic/work responsibilities? I've seen that you even have collaborations with others and I keep thinking "this person is great."
As a final note, I just want to leave my good wishes and hope you have a nice week. <3
Gosh, so many compliments in one ask, I‘m still a little loss for words. Thank you so much for reading my work and looking into my other projects, collabs and art! I hope you‘ve been enjoying them. ❤️
I think there is no denying that I need to organize myself a little bit to make everything work. I think I‘ve always used drawing, especially drawing comics, as a way to breathe and when I started uni I promised myself I would continue drawing somehow. The first semester was hell, but I finished all the way. 💪 And I had the same mindset for working, so when I started this year I was very motivated to draw. Lol I think it also helped that I had several different projects to work on so when I wasn’t in the mood for black and white I would move to something colorful. Comics also offer the possibility to work on different parts. Do I want to work on the story, on the storyboards, on the actual drawings or just editing…? A lot of options. And this is something which I heard on a video on AI but artist and creative people in general don‘t create in other to have more content but to get something out of their head and feel the satisfaction of creating a certain idea and I felt that very much. And then there is the joy of collabs and while there were unfortunately more failed attempts at collabs I’m very glad for those which eventually resulted in great projects. ❤️ I might have to take actual breaks from drawing when I get back to my thesis. I finished all the work but need to write the discussion part and wow, how much I don‘t wanna work on that.
Currently I use my time on commutes for drawings digitally or making storyboards. In the evening I finish private stuff and when time is left I work on traditional art. Shadow Chase is the only project where I try to have an overview on how many pages I have done and want to finish before the next upload. Other works can usually go up once finished. When I create something for fan projects like zines, bigbangs, etc. I usually just try to finish said project right away. I don‘t like procrastinating (except my thesis I guess) and rather have stuff than can be finished done right away and focus on my other projects again. Shades of Tourmaline was definitely my biggest collab project yet and with the amount of art planned it took like 3 years to finish because that was something I couldn‘t get done right away. 😂 fortunately clef was very patient with me (and kept me distracted with new collabs, oops).
The short answer would be I try to draw as much as possible because it is just a lot of fun with the additional bonus of entertaining a few people. ❤️
So I wanted to say that for the past months...well maybe a year or so. I have been going to the toughest times in my life. And I really don’t have anyone to blame but myself. I have been writing in my private hand written journal since then and to go back and read some of the stuff makes me think that maybe someone could get some help from all of this. Even if you aren’t struggling with addiction or maybe you just have really low self esteem it might help to know that you aren’t alone in this world. I have dealt with this feeling my whole life and I know now that it had a lot to do with how my parents neglected me for years and how one day they were both gone. And I was stuck there with this lady...my granny..and how even though I never wanted for anything and even though I had a good child hood there was always something missing..like an empty hole in my heart..my being..part of me.
I know a lot of people will never understand what it is like to be this way. And if you have never felt this way then I am so happy for you. To feel like you are all alone in a sea full of creatures is scary and dark sometimes. It will take you to and through things you may never understand. But in the end we are all going to go alone. And that is something that we need to think about and what kind of people we want to be remembered by. By reading my journals some people will think I am a fucked up individual...and hell...I may possibly be...but I am real. I am me.
