#gettingoutofmyownway

[alexishappi93]

...it feels so good to love #happi #happialwayshappy #gettingoutofmyownway (at Lessons Learned) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKGieKVgLnE/?igshid=dvo8efaq4rfa

[sluttygoddesspodcast]

Today starts the first day of my 7 day Self Reflections Challenge 🦋 : Self-Reflection is simply like taking a look at yourself in a full length mirror and saying and describing what you see looking back at you. : BUT : For this 7 day Self-Reflection Challenge I have to look at myself with totally different eyes and only say and describe positive things about myself and my life. : In order for positive changes to happen I have to make positive changes starting with the way I see myself right now. : So Day 1: Self-Reflection Challenge... Everyday a new, stronger, happier, and better version of Sandee emerges 🦋 and I am no longer AVAILABLE for anything or anyone that isn’t adding more value to my growth ✌🏽 : : : #gettingoutofmyownway #gettingstrongereveryday #beautifulblackwomen #blacklovematters #selfreflectingchallange #selfreflection #selflovealways #sandeeismyname #day1selfreflectionchallange (at Brooklyn, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7gXFiJpIot/?igshid=xgkaqaehwe0z

[thisisblooming-blog]

MY PERSONAL BOX

Oh man, my box.

It’s a whole lot of things.

It’s…

Fear of the future.

Saying too many yeses.

Being so incredibly sensitive.

Constantly seeking approval.

Always being worried if I am doing enough.

Struggling to stay in my lane and not peak my head out and look at everyone else's.

Being such a damn perfectionist.

Holding on to the reigns of my life so tightly.

Worrying and worrying and worrying again.

Struggling (like, really really struggling) to make decisions.

Doubling and tripling back.

Caring so much about my damn GPA.

Showing up for other people’s deadlines long before I show up for my own.

Letting other people’s perspective get to me.

Ruminating. Ugh, the damn ruminating.

Procrastinating far too often. This is a HUGE yikes in my life. Seriously.

Fearing failure.

Getting stuck in the valleys of my life and not pulling myself out faster.

Setting unrealistically high expectations for myself and being crushed when I don’t meet them.

Expecting perfection from myself right away.

Noticing a theme here? Reading back through these, I definitely did, and it was a wake up call to say the least.

My box is self-doubt. A massive lack of confidence in myself and my abilities. Insecurity.

The walls of this box are thick and strong. I have been trapped in this box for as long as I can remember.

I started my first meeting of the semester crying in office hours at how overwhelmed I was at the unknowns of my life. Embarrassing, yes, but also, a very vulnerable moment for me. Definitely one I won’t forget.

In that moment, you noticed how deeply I was feeling and called it out in me.

You sent me this quote, Friedman.

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” -Rainer Maria Rilke

It has stuck with me since. Living into the questions to eventually live into the answer. I love that.

So what am I doing and what have I been doing to break through this box?

I am learning to love the meantime.

I am learning to stay focused on my own lane.

I am learning to make my own decisions.

I am learning to that just because perspective is given doesn’t mean I have to take it.

I am learning that it is rarely possible to please everyone, and that is ok.

I am learning that my yes’s are valuable, and I need to learn them sparingly.

I am learning the power of the word no.

I am learning deciding to do something because I “should” is not a good enough reason.

I am learning that I am valuable enough to believe in.

I am learning all of these things.

In that learning, I am failing, stretching, growing, and overcoming.  

I am being intentional about practicing as often as I can.

I have already seen great change in myself, and I look forward to blooming in this even more.

Quick side note: As with all of these pictures, this picture choice was intentional. This picture is of my best friend and I. My best friend also happens to be my mom. When the walls of my box seem to be closing in, when life gets to be just a little to much, when I feel like I just can’t do it anymore, my mom is there for me. She is my rock, and I truly don’t know what I would do without her. Everyone needs someone in their corner cheering them on, and I can always count on her to be in mine and remind me that “this too shall pass.” 

[rlynnpierce]

Let me just go sit my behind down over here! 😂 #gettingoutofmyownway #ILoveMe

[alwaysxknitting]

Tomorrow starts a new week and a new chapter. I don’t know where this journey is taking me but God does and it’s in His hands. I’m ready to find Me again. #weightlossjourney #thisismyjourney #gettinghealthy #weightloss #givingittogod #gettingoutofmyownway #cosfit #jesusgirl #progressnotperfection #progressisprogress #pickyourhard #cosplayer #holleygerth #newchapter #opendoor @holleygerth #motivation #motivationalquotes

[denise-woods-blog]

#fearless #nolimits #nonegativity #gettingoutofmyownway #iamunstoppable