serena is the reckless one.
everyone’s always said it, she’s always believed it. maybe she’s not proud of it, but she’s glad for her ability to do things without thinking sometimes. she’s seen what happens on the opposite end of the spectrum.
dan, blair. dan, and blair. dan and blair.
she thinks perhaps she’s not the reckless one. that maybe, in all the time they’ve spent loving her and blaming everything on her recklessness, they’ve missed the parts of her that reflect on themselves.
because dan didn’t think twice about serena when he fell in love again. he didn’t think about her when he fell in love with blair. and blair thought about serena, she knows this. blair thought so much about serena, until she didn’t.
sometimes serena thinks she deserved it, that she had it coming. she had led dan on for so long, let him love her despite everything, left him hanging when she couldn’t handle his love, always came running back into his open arms.
sometimes she thinks maybe dan is her chuck. she’d always thought her and dan were everything chuck and blair weren’t. they were truly in love, a happy and healthy love, everything the other had ever wanted, but maybe they were all the same.