Shy, curious, with high peaks of hyperfocus, I am a new Turtle born in October 2025. I am also Brazilian, and still improving my English, so please excuse me if my text seems harsh. But I need to share my thoughts, and this seems like a good place for that, even though I've never used this platform before.
But to the point, how I became a fan of Yizhan.
I already knew Yibo before. I've watched his dramas, variety shows (SDC is my favorite), and even looked for his CP before (with CX, because she was the only girl he seemed to talk to). In short, I must have known Yibo for about five years, but I never delved into getting to know him better.
I only vaguely knew Xiao Zhan from a few dramas (Douluo Continent to be exact, which I watched twice), and that's it. I never knew he was an Idol.
About The Untamed, I also knew about that. And I loved the drama, even though I never watched the last episodes out of pity for my heart (I cry very easily, and I don't want to see the end of TU).
Did I know about Yizhan before? Vaguely. There are many edits, it's impossible not to see one thing or another, even more so having TU in your history. However, I never researched it, although I knew that Yibo and Zhan were estranged due to the fandoms. I also saw edits of the behind-the-scenes of TU, but I didn't know how real they were, nor if they were just an obsession of TU fans.
Until October 18, 2025, I rewatched TU. YouTube showered me with Yizhan edits. I watched edits for two days straight, until I found the script reading footage. I discovered that there were hours of unedited BTS videos, where I could see for myself if they were real or not.
I started watching BTS, and while reading comments I discovered about the 2017 DDU. And about the song Nan Hai. And Yibo's posts as an indirect response to Zhan… I was sucked in.
I went to Bilibili, where there's much more content organized chronologically (my obsession), and since then I've been watching (and rewatching) the entire history since Yibo's debut. Seeing them younger helped me a lot to understand more about them, their personalities, their ways of speaking (even though I don't speak Chinese… yet), and mannerisms.
From everything I've seen since October, I have no doubt that Yizhan is real. And not just a strong friendship. They are a couple. They love each other so deeply that I myself fell in love with both of them and their love. Having become my hyperfocus, I think about Yizhan every day, and I would be happy to have someone to talk to about it (my mother can't stand hearing about Yizhan anymore). That's why I decided to post here. Being surrounded by other Turtles brings great relief, a warmth. There are so many haters out there, and seeing their comments really hurts.
If any of the old Turtles have any tips on how to survive this hate, I'd be happy to read them.
Even without doubting Yizhan, the frustration is immense. Waiting for 2026 with no certainty of anything but hope is also heartbreaking. And while I want Yizhan to just shout to the world about their love, I know that may never happen because it's too dangerous for them. Really dangerous. There are so many crazy haters that I worry about their safety…
So many hopes, so many fears… Being a baby Turtle takes me on a rollercoaster ride all day long. One moment I'm smiling, then I'm on the verge of tears… Tell me if there's any support group, I feel like I need to apply.
Now I'm going back to Yizhan. Again.
See you later.