Fratjo breaks up with you and instantly regrets it â series
The fourth letter never gets delivered because Satoru Gojo finally snaps after you had disregarded his attempt to speak to you.
The rain was heavier than when he saw you this afternoon, the kind that soaks through his sweatshirt and drips from his eyelashes.
The dorm lady is halfway through her crossword when he runs past the front desk.
She was too late. Heâs already taking the stairs two at a time.
By the time he reaches your floor, his chest is heaving, his hands are shaking. Not from the cold, but from fear.
Because for the first time since he broke up with you, he realizes something awful.
You might actually never forgive him.
The thought hits harder than any linebacker ever has.
So he pounds on your door.
Loud enough that doors start opening up and down the hallway. Girls peek their heads out, mouths open with shock.
The football star doesnât care.
He bangs again. âPlease.â
His voice cracks. âPlease open the door.â
Then he hears the lock click.
The door opens painfully slow, but there you are. Swearpants⌠and is that his oversized hoodie? Did you miss him ?
The look on your face said otherwise. He had never seen this look directed at him before. Was it indifference? Was it annoyance?
For a second neither of you speak.
Then your eyes flick down to where heâs standing. He was drenched, a puddle of water forming at his shoes. His eyes were red, he looked miserable. Pathetic even.
âWhat are you doing here?â Your voice is flat.
Gojo swallows. âI just need five minutes.â
His hand catches it, âplease.â His voice breaks again.
The hallway has gotten noticeably quieter.
Everyone is watching you. He knows they are and for once he doesnât care what people think of him.
âI know you donât want to see me.â
âThen leave,â you said sternly.
âI canât.â His eyes are already shining. âI tried leaving.â
Your expression falters, just barely.
âI tried giving you space.â A broken laugh escapes him. âApparently I canât do that either.â
The girls down the hall are openly staring now, some are getting closer to hear the conversation. Others are pulling out their phones too, recording.
You notice, your jaw tightens and that annoyed look returns.
And maybe thatâs the thing that finally breaks him, he thinks youâre going to shut the door on him again.
So he does the unimaginable, and drops straight to his knees.
The hallway erupts. Gasps, whispers, and chuckles.
âThatâs embarrassing.â
And he is. Rainwater and tears mixed together. He doesnât care how humiliated and embarrassing he looks. Nothing matters anymore.
He grabs your wrist desperately before you can pull away.âPlease.â
The word comes out shattered. âPlease just hear me out.â
Heâs never looked like this. Not the cocky quarterback, the football hero.
Right now heâs just your Satoru.
âGet inside,â you whisper. âYouâve embarrassed yourself enough.â He follows your eyes to the girls in your dorm hall. Judging, laughing, mouths wide open, in awe at his behaviour.
And to that, he scurries into your dorm room, tripping and falling back onto his knees. He stays there, because frankly he doesnât have it in him to face you head on.
Silence follows, because he really didnât expect you to give him the time of day. He hadnât planned this far.
âI messed up.â His voice trembles.
Gojoâs head drops; and before he can stop himself, his arms wrap around your legs. Holding on like youâre the only thing keeping him upright.
Which, honestly, might be true. He can feel his face burning; but he doesnât let go.
You donât shrug him off, and god does this contact heâs having with you feel comforting. Itâs the first time he has touched you in two months. Tears prick his eyes again, as he nuzzles his head into your legs.
âI was wrong.â The words come muffled against sweatpants.
âNo.â His grip tightens.
âI thought I was doing the right thing.â Another shaky breath.
âI thought if I focused on football everything would work out.â He laughs bitterly.
âTurns out I was just an idiot.â
Your chest aches despite the hate you felt for him after the break up. This isnât the Satoru who broke your heart.
This is one who canât even look at you. The one shaking like heâs terrified youâll disappear again.
âI miss you.â His voice is barely audible.
âI miss talking to you.â A tear slides down his cheek.
âI miss hearing about your classes.â
âI miss getting you sugary coffee in the morning.â
âI miss annoying you in the library and I miss you trying to help me study.â
For the first time in months, a tiny smile almost appears.
Gojo notices, an his eyes immediately fill with hope.
âI love youâŚI never stopped loving you. Iâm so sorry, Iâve been such a dick,â he sniffles.
You close your eyes. This is a problem you thought to yourself. You know he means it. The idiot means every word. Which somehow makes it worse.
When you open your eyes again, heâs still there.
Waiting. Like a man standing in front of a judge. Waiting for his sentence.
Finally you sigh. âIf you think thisâ you point to him and the scene he created, âfixes anything, youâre dumber than I thought.â
He looks up at you, big glassy blue eyes, bottom lip quivering from crying.
His shoulders immediately slump. âThatâs fair.â
âI know.â His eyes lower.
ThenââIf I ever forgive youâŚâ
Gojo looks up so fast he almost gets whiplash.
ââŚthereâs a lot of work to do.â
The hope on his face is painful. âYou mean that?â
âI mean maybe, if thereâs change.â
For Gojo, that feels like winning the lottery. âIâll do it.â His answer comes instantly. âIâll do anything.â
You raise an eyebrow. âAnything?â
He nods his head, standing up now.
âNope. Whatever you want me to do.â Gojo stares like youâve hung the moon.
And for the first time since the breakup, he thinksâ
He hasnât lost you forever.
Dividers by: @strangergraphics