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Homesick?

I think Annie’s homesick.  Mostly, I think he misses his family?  He’s kind of a crybaby but when he’s actually upset, it’s not so cute, more like just makes you wanna fix whatever’s wrong. (´。＿。｀)

I know we kinda agreed we’re in this long term, but I really want him to know I’ll send him home if he asks.  He told me to stop asking, but it is an option! (￣﹏￣；)

I mean... I love my parents and they’re great, they’re supporting me (I guess us) and they helped prepare me to go off on my own and I still left even though I really miss them.  I don’t exactly know why Annie ran away, I’m guessing he got really overwhelmed?  Probably about our condition? (；′⌒`)

I mean it’s very confusing!  It’s uncommon enough there’s no actual medical name for it or anything!  No studies, no explicit historical record, not a thing, I had to make up all the terminology myself.  I only know what I know from trial and error, but if he was turning stuff within hours, I don’t blame him for getting freaked out.  I’ve never turned anything that fast, it takes days, sometimes weeks to fully turn something and Annie’s gotten stabilized to that point too and I’m guessing that’s a better sign. ╯︿╰

So I don’t know what was going on, I’m guessing turning stuff that wasn’t meant to be turned, questions he couldn’t answer, feelings being hurt, and just it’s already really confusing without all that.  He gets overwhelmed kinda easy I’m finding out.  First is the stuttering, then the crying, then he just sort of runs off. (。_。)

I think it’s fair to guess he got SUPER overwhelmed and ran until he didn’t have the energy to run anymore. (´。＿。｀)

But still... I think he loves his family and he misses them and he misses everything he knew, but he says he doesn’t want to go back so...

I guess if I won’t be sending him home, I’ll be the best friend I can for him. ╮(╯-╰)╭

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2 am in a Walmart is magic (●'◡'●)

So like.

Annie can dance.  And sing.  Like goddamn he’s p good!  I knew he wrote out some lyrics but I didn’t know how much more he did with music??? ✪ ω ✪

His dancing is p awesome to behold, man, it was a lot of body percussive stuff!  Like he has a striking range is what I’d call it, get within 3 feet of the guy and he could probably give you a concussion and it’s AMAZING! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

This is also the most recent in the series of just how friggin interesting he is to be around tbh!  I keep saying he seems all shy and anxious and stuff and it’s super endearing, but like then he’s here in the haircare aisle of a Walmart just completely unashamed slapping and stomping and singing like I was over in produce and I heard him and it was the kinda shit that makes you wanna join in so I did and he didn’t stop or get surprised or embarrassed, he rolled with it.  (((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o))) I think it’s a getting in the zone thing. (●'◡'●)

But I mean... he got overwhelmed again emotionally I think.  He told me he was happy but like... I still don’t know what made him run away but he said he didn’t really realize just how long he hasn’t been happy until then. (´。＿。｀)

If he’s gonna live like this with me tho, he’s gonna be happy about it dammit! (ò_óˇ)

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Second color!?!?!!?!??!!11?!?!

Me and him got stranded at one of those buttfuck nowhere bus stops up north the other day in the rain. (ノへ￣、)

Not the worst thing in the world tho?  He must be feeling better, we actually had like... a whole conversation?  Still a little awkward talking to him but it’s just cause we still don’t know each other very well I think. ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

Got back to making some bracelets and have enough to send out my next batch of orders if we can just get to a post office.  I’m running wayyyy behind, but yaknow, responsibilities and all! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

Which actually, An pointed out something really interesting and just... okay so like... big fuckin deal for me.  I think him too since we’re in the same boat, but different colors.

The hoodie is still blue. (•_•) I been wearing it p regularly for almost 2 months and it’s still just as blue as the day he said I could keep it.  So he asked me how much a bracelet was since he figures it’ll stay yellow even if he’s wearing it.  I mean... I’ve only ever been able to work with yellow and I guess I count black and white but they’re always going to have a yellow-ish tint when I’m done so...

I almost can’t believe it!? இ௰இ I have NEVER worked with a second color and I really already didn’t think I would find someone else like me. ಥ_ಥ I never considered what that would mean for things we’ve turned! (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) So I tied some of my unturned cords on his wrist.  That should turn them and when they’re done, hopefully that means I can actually work on things with a new color! (ʃ♡ƪ -ಥ)

It’s a nice shade of blue too, really pretty, if it turns out we really can’t turn things we already turned, I’m really glad it’s the first I get to have that isn’t mine.  (/ω＼*)……… (/ω•＼*) I hope he feels the same. 

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Should *probably* let my parents know.

Left the hostel today, gonna hop on a ferry and see what’s across the river! ╰(*°▽°*)╯

Kinda wondering how long An’ll put up with my shit honestly.  Been almost a week and he seems content to get dragged around.  I’m not complaining, it’s nice to have some company even if he doesn’t talk much.  Maybe he’s just tired too.  That makes sense.  (◎﹏◎)

He needs to get better at asking for the things he needs tho.  He was just putting toothpaste on his finger for like two days before I noticed, this guy’s adorable, but shit if it doesn’t make me wonder. (。_。)

Should probably let my parents know I’m keeping someone for a while so they don’t wonder why I’m asking for money.  Hopping around so much makes it easier to get day gigs at least. o(*￣︶￣*)o