#gone away

[janisred13]

gone away to goose and maverick is so...

DEVASTATING

I reach to the sky

And call out your name

And if I could trade

I would.

And it feels, and it feels like Heaven's so far away And it stings, and it stings now The world is so cold Now that you've gone away

[nudiesuitdaydreamsofacirclesky]

Happy Heavenly Birthday to my two stankiest Capricorns…

I still can’t believe y’all are in Heaven now. I can’t deal, it’s SO unfair…

It’s taken me this long to post this because I’m sad today.

[sezginer35]

Akıl hastanesinde yatan birinin yazdığı çarpıcı şiir.

Çoğu yerinde insan kendini buluyor.

GİDİYORUM!

Benim olan ne varsa, doldurdum ceplerime.

Ağzımda bir kaç kelime küfür!

Aklımda yine sen,

Gidiyorum.

Beceremediğim evlatlığımı,

Başaramadığım iş hayatımı,

Ümidi kestiğim yarınlarımı, ceplerime doldurdum,

Gidiyorum.

Bitmek bilmeyen sağlık problemlerimi,

Stresten kopardığım, tırnaklarımın kenarında duran etleri,

Sıkmaktan kırılan birkaç dişimi, çantama doldurdum,

Gidiyorum.

Üstesinden gelemediğim akrabalık ilişkilerimi,

Neresinden tutarsam tutayım, Elimde kalan karı-koca hikayesini,

Anne - baba olamanın sorumluluk yüklerini, heybeme doldurdum,

Gidiyorum.

Biri bitmeden diğerini tutuşturduğum, izmaritlerimi,

Hatıra olsun diye sakladığım bir kaç şiirimi,

Cüzdanımda taşıdığım sevdiğim insanların, resimlerini çöpe attım,

Gidiyorum.

Parça parça olmuş ümitlerimi,

Irzına geçilen hayallerimi,

Yarın her şey düzelir diye kendime ettiğim telkinleri cüzdanıma koydum,

Gidiyorum.

Aklımın sokaklarında dolaşan mutlu veletleri,

Yüreğime yatmış mışıl mışıl uyuyan sevdiğimi,

Yüzüme gülüp arkamdan söven bir kaç kişiyi, zihnimde öldürdüm,

Gidiyorum.

Çağırınca gelmeyen Azrail'i,

Herkese güneşi gösterirken, bana kar yağdıran Mikail'i,

Sûr'a üflemeyi unutan İsrafil'i, Allah'a şikayet ettim,

Gidiyorum.

Hastane koridorlarında attığım voltaları,

Bana da şiir yazsana diye başımın etini yiyen Gamze ablayı,

Sen artık iyileşmezsin diyen tüm doktorları, sırtıma yükledim,

Gidiyorum.

[shadowlight-22]

So I know that I haven’t post anything or like little writing and stuff. I just decided to take a break in all honesty, you can probably guess that I got brunt out or just decided to not post simply because I didn’t feel like it. But lately I’ve been on Glimmer (Fanfic app) I’m not gonna lie it’s addictive and quite fun to read the content and stories.

So that’s what I’ve been doing lately. Actually for a long time. When will I come back? I don’t know in all honesty since it feels rather nice to not feel the need to post, and just do what you want to do or what you feel comfortable doing.

Sorry about not really posting about my sudden disappearance. It really happened suddenly and just you know.. Didn’t think much on it. Till I’m like let me just post about my current situation. It’s nothing bad or anything. Just focus on me.

Anywho, love y’all and hope you all are doing well! 🖤

[coffeeheartaddict2]

Gone Away

Book: Open Heart (AU one off)

Pairing: F!MC Casey Valentine x Ethan Ramsey

Category: Angst

Rating: Mature audiences

Warnings: Bio weapon attack, character death, alcohol consumption

Word count: 1192

Summary: Try as they might, the Edenbrook and Mass Kenmore teams are unable to find a cure for the maitotoxin in time to save Casey.

Authors note: inspiration for this fic is from a song called Gone Away by the Offspring. Lyrics will appear in amongst the story. I apologise in advance.

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The hospital was chaotic. Locking down in a code black situation always is, however all he could think about was her. The stolen looks that later turned into nights full of passion. Even though it had been ripped away from them both by circumstance he was done hiding. He was optimistic this morning. A break through on the case with the Senator which had lead to a quick solve and the hopes that a private celebration would be the beginning of what he knew wanted since Miami.

But now, he was standing in the hallway. Seeing a distressed Casey holding the door shut to not let out whatever toxin had been released in the room. The logical side in him stepped up. He got the floor evacuated, CDC contacted as well as other authorities but his heart was in that room and was hoping against all hope that she would pull through.

Ethan is going through the motions. He had gone to the field office where they took the senator’s aide, they were able to rule a whole heap of toxins out but that in away but then more behind.

He rejoined the rest of the team in the lab. They were able to get a medication to Rafael and Casey but he did not know how much time that would buy them.

As time went on the harder it was for him to compartmentalise. He was struggling so much that he did not see Tobias’s own anguish at what he saw when he came to Edenbrook. They all went to the labs and got stuck in but as time went on he was feeling more and more useless. He went for a walk and soon found himself at the room. He could see Casey struggling. He put on the hazmat suit and entered.

Casey was shocked to see Ethan. She knew that his cool exterior was slowly cracking as the day went on but she had to be honest with herself. There was as of this moment no cure for a maitotoxin and she was starting to resign herself to the fact that she may not make it. She was exhausted. Physically and mentally trying to fight the inevitable.

Ethan urged her to lie down. He could see the toll it was taking on her. They talked about life and regrets.

“I love you” he said, tears rolling down his face.

“I am done hiding Casey. When you pull through from this we are a couple.”

Casey did not know what to think.

“And if I do not pull through?” She whispered.

“Then I won’t regret not telling you how I feel.”

Casey then fell asleep in his arms.

“Pulled away before your time. I can’t deal it’s so unfair"

The teams were getting closer. They had just received word that Rafael had passed and that news frustrated Tobias. He and Ethan had always been competitive, even before they had stopped being friends but now that competition had caused not one but so far three fatalities. He had to admit he could have done with his expertise right now, despite it being a chemistry problem. They were close but he was hoping they would not be too late.

Meanwhile back at the room Ethan awoke with a start. Casey’s monitor was flat lining.

“No no no” he muttered as he launched into commencing CPR. Try as he might he could not revive her. He reached for the defibrillator. He attached the pads.

“Come on Casey” he said between tears. “Pull through baby.”

He charged the machine. The line was still flat. Again. And again. He called out in more frustration. So engrossed he did not see Baz enter the room. He was excited but when he entered the room he was saddened. The cure had come too late.

“I reach to the sky, and call out your name”

The team arrived to see Baz trying to get Ethan to stop resuscitating Casey. Tobias smacked a wall in frustration. Ethan was inconsolable. The woman he loved had been taken away from him.

The mood for the rest of the day was somber. Ethan was sent home. Tobias was wracked with guilt. And all the team members and staff from both hospitals were in shock at what had happened.

“And it feels yeah it feels like the world has grown cold now that you’ve gone away”

Sleep work, alcohol and sleep. That was the shape Ethan’s life took. He attended the funeral. He was a mess emotionally. He had lost patients before but this hit him where it hurt. More than Delores and possibly more than if Naveen had not made it. Tobias had tried to reach out but he ignored him. Naveen had told him that Tobias wanted to reach out to apologise and to reconcile. But Ethan wanted no part of it. Casey was gone and she could not come back and nothing could change that.

“Leavin’ flowers on your grave, show that I still care, black roses and hail Mary’s can’t bring back what’s taken from me”

Ethan had become a shell. He worked hard to try and dull the pain and drank heavily when he could work no more. He went to her grave weekly. It was the only time he allowed himself to feel. He cried, screamed, talked as if she was still there. He even questioned why he was not taken. He wished he told her sooner. Hell he even admitted he wished he had not stopped in Miami but there was a Casey shaped hole in his life now and it was not going to be filled.

“Maybe in another life, I could find you there”

A year went by. One one level it had gone quick and on another it dragged. The grief that Ethan was enduring was taking a toll on him now. He still drank more than he should have but the endless nights of disturbed sleep mixed with excessive consumption were catching up. He was working hard, a complex case and he all of a sudden collapsed unconscious. He was admitted. His heart weak, liver showing signs of shutting down. Ironically that night was the best sleep he had had since Casey died. He dreamt of her, this was nothing new of course but this was different. He normally dreamt of the night she died but this time he had no idea where he was but he was walking towards her. She was happy and so was he. During that moment in his dream he was at peace. He felt himself slipping away.

Naveen was in the room with him and so was Alan and Tobias. They witnessed a flicker of a smile on his face as he slipped away peacefully.

“He is with Casey now” said Tobias, tears starting roll down his face.

Alan patted his son’s former friend on the shoulder. “You did all you could” said Alan.

“It was not in time though, he would still be here.”

“It is a loss” said Naveen, “He is at peace now though.” And all three men nodded their head in agreement.

Authors note: Again I am sorry. It came into my head and I needed to get it out I have attacked the song to the fic

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[darkangelfirefighter69]

Five Finger Death Punch - Gone Away (Official Video)

🖤 Carpe Diem ❤️‍🔥

[derangedrhythms]

Hugo Williams, I Feel A Little Jumpy Around You: Paired Poems by Men & Women; 'Gone Away', ed. Naomi Shihab Nye & Paul B. Janeczko

[90s-2000s-barbie]

The Offspring - Gone Away (1997)