#goodbye eyelashes

[catboywhimsy]

Sometimes I forget why I have things blacklisted bc I don't recognize the word and then I check to see and I trigger myself oop

[vampirequeeer]

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[doubletwoseven]

Depression story time

So I was super fucked up today due to a) 3 nightmares this morning and b) a trigger as soon as I woke up resulting in symptoms that lasted a little over 12 hours (once 1 thing triggers me i can get hypersensitive to MINISCULE iterations of that trigger, resetting and perpetuating my symptoms)

And see look here im now fokkin pissed for 2 reasons (((definitely first world problems I'm fully aware, that being said)))

1) Because of feeling like literal shit I was unable to eat today but around 11:30 PM I decided I could eat a bagel with cream cheese and I got really fuckin excited about it. You know like nothing had sounded good or even edible all day but finally that bagel sounded fucking perfect, it was a way to get nourishment and I wasn't going to die hooray

But I go downstairs and there are no fucking bagels left

My mother who is still visiting for the holiday ate my last fucking bagel

My health freak of a mother who never let me buy fucking bagels when I was growing up because they were too fucking unhealthy and fattening - I finally do my own groceries and she comes into my house and eats my fukkin bagel I am upset about this ok I hate hypocrites they're my biggest pet peeve and idk I'm just really mad about that

Also 2) because of le depress I low-key haven't removed my mascara since Friday it is now 2am Sunday night and I think 80% of my eyelashes are just falling out they're just coming out in my fingers so REMOVE YOUR FUCKING MAKEUP, BOYS AND GIRLs

Or maybe it's falling out because of stress?? Or maybe it's maybelline

But point of the story my hypocritical mum ate my last bagel & I lost my eyelashes (they take a month or more to grow back and I'm sad as fuck / kind if angry)

ANYWAY GREAT WEEKEND

[spacealiencafe]

this is driving me fucking insane