So after my family went through the trouble of getting my mom's old collage BFF's daughter to message me the other night, I finally messaged back... My mom passed away from natural causes over a week ago. Apparently she was living out of state and had health issues. But she was a big lady with diabetes and other health issues since I was 12 maybe. We were never close. But I still it's weird to think she's not around. She was only in her early 60s. Still pretty young. I'm glad the girl told me and not my fam. No drama. I messaged 1 of my half-brothers asked him what he wanted when he messaged me 6mo ago. I'm wondering if Dads gone too. Also diabetic. Haven't heard back yet. If he replies at all. Not really expecting it. All my Fam is really anti social media so I can't figure out much and I usually block them. I already know even talking to these 2 my family is gonna think I want back in or drag me back in. I can't do it. Even in the position I am in now. I love them but they hurt me. And I haven't spoken to most of them for 8 years. Anything I do say they always hold against me. Everything is always my fault. Maybe because I was born and my dad never wanted any kids. Told me himself once. Pretty sure *I* wasn't the problem. 😒😝 I told the girl I have my own things going on. If she looked at this profile she'd know. Not that any of them have ever been concerned about me. Like a friend said it just keeps piling on me. Nothing I can do about it now. I have other issues and nothing else matters right now. This can't put me over the edge. I have my friends rooting for me. Even a stranger called me brave. I feel the opposite honestly. But I'm trying to hold on....❤ Photos my mom and dad before I was born, he was the only Mexican in a Phillipino choir. Haha. Christmas at my dad's mother's house (my beloved Nana's), mom's baby photo, and mom and I when I was Dorothy in 4th grade. Stop laughing at my bangs. 😛 #mom #rip #dad #family #parents #kids #mentalillness #healthissues #gotnomoney #gotproblems #homeless #notsobrave
