I very rarely use this blog for anything other than aesthetically pleasing images. I wish I would have kept a journal post Radioactive Iodine Treatment for my Graves’...
My thyroid has hit rock bottom as of recently, and I would like to keep documentation of my experience for better or for worse.
6 years post radiation symptoms:
Severe, sporadic pain accompanied by a loud ringing in ears/head
Sensitivity to skin (tender, tingly)
teeth sensitivity (hurts to eat)
nail beds so weak that I can bend them back and forward, they flake and peel and chip, and you can see ridges and white under bed
nausea (oh and a day of throwing up)
pain behind eyes and double vision (random)
my head keeps falling asleep
confusion/ lethargic state
very poor digestion, causing bloating and discomfort not to mention sever self esteem issues due to this. Also, making it uncomfortable to eat
dry and brittle hair, hair loss
dry mouth, making me self conscious about my breath and in general as if weight issues weren’t enough
sensitivity to extreme temperature, especially heat.
heart palpitations, chest pain (scary stuff)
feeling shaky and lightheaded
feeling crazy. actually crazy.
The only thing worse about feeling bad about your self on the outside, is feeling bad about yourself on the inside.
Of course the effects Graves’ has on my eyes, skin, hair, nails, body especially weight and more importantly the severe invisible pain that accompanies the visible symptoms gets to me, but what I feel the worst about is how unstable my emotions have been lately. I feel bad for the people who I encounter everyday. It is a terrible burden of guilt. No matter how hard I try to control myself, I am not myself to control. I feel so fragile inside and out and it is really difficult to hide. I don’t want to feel like this.
Six more days until I see my endocrinologist - I just want to be myself again.
