#greysexual problems

[lykaiyo]

Im 23 and i think i just experienced physical attraction for the first time today. That shits cray.

[dyvyn]

that time i told my ex that i realized i thought id been sexualy attracted to them and hadn't even realized it and that i wasn't sure if i even wanted to have sex with them, and later they told me they felt like i was feeling entitled to sex with them just because they were having sex with someone else. like??? thats nearly the opposite of what i feel and what i said? but i felt so awful and blamed myself for making them feel that way, it wasn't until months later i realized it wasn't something i did or said that made them feel that way, but that was something they projected onto me. and being told that made me feel really dirty and disgusting just for having and expressing sexual attraction for one of the first times in my life, and i still feel gross

[m-azing]

like its honest to god a complete cycle I have to go through on ao3 and it is painfully internally humiliating somehow?????? 1) " hey new fandom thing so WHERES THE BANGING IM GOING TO READ ALL OF IT" 2) "fuck yeah I'll save this shit and rec it to one thousand friends and read it 20 times" 3) "oh my god it's been two months I can't even look at these tags without turning bright red whY DO I DO THIS AT ALL" 4) "hey new fandom thing so--"

[headbeater]

things i worry about re: dating

no bueno marriage/kids

I do not have my life "together"/no discernible direction

my body - me being accepting and comfortable, not what some dickhole thinks.

pretty sure I've forgotten how to kiss/fuck.

ugh. extroverts.

not that sure I even believe in romantic love?

just, people? gross.

[genderhuman]

had like 2 hours of sleep and can’t focus toooo terribly well on the conference sessions I’m attending. but now all my brain has in store for me is a current preoccupation with sex. lots and lots of sex. thanks, brain.

[genderhuman]

my lack-of-birth-control sex drive is out of control

and by 'out of control,' i mean probably pretty regular for an allosexual human with a normative sex drive, but so so so much for what i'm used to as a little grey.

thankfully, i finally got my birth control and expect my sex drive to go back to its normal low-nonexistent levels. but as for now,i just want to be on everything and everyone. =/

someone tell me things while i finish my paper. la;ksjdfkl

[genderhuman]

goddammit i just wanna kiss and fuck all of the beautiful humans. 

where did this come from!?