I really miss you. It’s been a while since we last seen each other, yeah? I hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself. How was your travels? Was it boring meeting those other immortals? I think that’s what you said why you had to travel overseas. Did you see lots of new cool thing and eat lots of delicious food?
Hey, Chae, I just wanted to say thank you for being my friend. I really appreciate you. I think of you as my family and my big sister. Was that weird? I think so. You’re very kind and sweet to me. I only wish happiness for you which is why I’m glad you found Leo. Kekeke. If there’s anything, I can do for you, please let me know. I’m always happy to help you and hang out with you! Love you lots!
I’m sorry that I’m a terrible friend. I’m sorry that I don’t seek you and bother you more often. It’s just…that I overthink it sometimes. ‘Should I ask Yoona out for lunch today? No, no, no, she’s busy with her work. I should ask her for her opinion on this? Stop, you’re bothering her. I should tell her this pun! Just stop.' My mind can never decide on what to do so I end up doing absolutely nothing. Stupid right? Right.
Gah, why did I start off the letter like that? Anyways, I just want to say thank you for being my friend and putting up with me. I really hope you’re doing well with your activities. It seems quite busy so make sure to eat a minimum of 50 meals a day and drink 100 gallons of water please and thank you.
I know you’ll disagree with me buttttt I think you’re a very beautiful, attractive girl with an awesome dorky personality. Mega plus! You bring the boys out! <—- Sorry. You’re very charming and friendly, makes me forget you’re a idol sometimes. I’m really glad you’re in my life, yeah? Makes my time here more enjoyable. Love you to infinity and beyond.
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[Grim Notes Entry #XX]
December 11, 2013
Is it awful of me that sometimes…I wish I never told you about my feelings? It would have spared us both the trouble and the pain. I should have kept my mouth shut.
It’s awful. The thought of you with someone else. Why did you lead me on like that? Did you even feel the same way? Or was I just something to be played with?
It hurts so much.
I hate how I let myself still be around you. I hate acting happy around you. I am quite the foolish girl, aren’t I?
[Luna wrote another entry later on the same day.]
[Grim Notes Entry #XX]
December 11, 2013
I’m sorry. I was angry. I didn’t mean to write that.
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[Grim Notes Entry #XX]
October 4, 1915
It’s been seven years since I saw my loved ones die before my eyes… The memory is still fresh in my mind and the guilt in my heart has quadrupled since then. Why couldn’t I save them? Why am I so weak? Why can’t I join you? I know I keep asking these questions but I can’t help but blame myself especially when the anniversary of your, well, our death comes around…The headaches are painful and my body wants to collapse any moment. I just want to put myself out of misery again but it won’t work. I tried. Death owns every piece of me and won’t let me join you.
How long must I do this? Tell me.
I recently found our graves…I didn’t even know they had buried us together in the cemetery. If I had known, I would have came sooner. Father, Mother, Chi Soon oppa, Jinyoung-ah…I’m so sorry but this is the closest I can be with you.
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[Grim Notes Entry #XX]
May 19, 1953
I saw The King and I today. It was so wonderful. I’m so glad I neglected my duties. It was so worth it. It brought back so many memories from my first year of college. Musicals was a world that I left behind but a part of me yearns to break out into a song and dance. But my sadness will always pull me down, I can’t bring myself to sing and dance in such a state.
"Shall We dance?" is my favorite number. The whole scene is all so wonderful. I love seeing Anna and the Kind dance together. It makes me want to dance.
I wish I can slow dance with someone. Such a silly wish, isn’t it? Enough of that. I must go and retrieve those souls that I have neglected.
I should really get an adequate amount of sleep. I keep falling asleep in random places by accident. First, it was at the graveyard then at the park! And today was no different, I fell asleep somewhere in the club…I didn’t even know how I got there! But when I woke up, I was sleeping on a bed. The room I was in was…odd. It felt very weird. Something else was in there with me but I wasn’t able to pinpoint it and it didn’t seem hostile towards me. Whatever it was…I think it knows what I am.
His name was Tao, the person who let me sleep in that room. He looked scary at first but he’s very kind. Something bad happened to him. He touched my scythe and he blacked out. It was awful. He looked like he was in a lot of pain. I hope his hand is okay now that I think about it. One thing I’m sure though is that he’s not human. His eyes became a pretty silver color briefly. He didn’t wake up anytime soon so I stayed to watch over him. Thankfully, in the morning, he was fine…I hope.
I am curious about him. I wish to know more if possible. If not then that’s okay.
✍: For what my muse has written about yours in their diary.
Baekhyun.
21
Djinn
It’s been a while since I last wrote an entry about Baekhyun. Let me tell you, a whole lot has happened between us and I guess I just wanted to spill my feelings out for a bit. How do I begin? I guess when I’ve become so attached to him and fell for him. I bet that’s funny to you, isn’t it? A grim reaper in love. It probably is. By no means, it was ever to be known. I never wanted to speak about or admit it but there was no use in trying to hide it with a stubborn Baekhyun around.
It was fleeting, whatever it was, but it made me very happy, every moment. Though I knew this happiness had to end at some point; it wasn’t meant for me. It was the cold hard truth. I won’t lie. It hurt terribly. I cried so many times. I was just a fool, an idiot…a second choice. But for what it’s worth, I think it helped him realized something and made him go for it. If he’s happy then so am I.
I’ve been keeping myself busy in the meantime, working, reading, and making my presence sparse in his life. I needed to. It helped in a way. I came across the angel’s blade so this might be my last update. It was said to kill anything, even my kind. I wonder if I should tell him about it and what I plan to do with it. He would be mad, of course, and try to stop me too. If you happen to find this notebook, I’m sorry, okay?
In the end, it didn’t work. I’m still here though in bad shape. Such a disappointment really. But I guess I don’t have to wait to listen to his stories now. Should I give him back the necklace?
I knew this day was going to come sooner or later. I’m happy for him. I truly am. But a piece of me…is sad (?) Is that normal or am I stupid? I have nothing against her. Not at all. It’s just…bittersweet, I guess. Fate is cruel and horrible at timing. I’ve come to accept that many decades ago. It always leaves behind the question of what ifs and it’ll haunt you, wondering what could have happen.
All my memories with Baekhyun will forever be cherished. I will always care for him. That is absolute. I’ve met such a good person, a bit whiny like a baby but good nonetheless. I’m glad to have met him. Thanks for putting up with me as always.
