Just Keep Going
You know that sort of feeling you get when you feel like you’re being ignored, or think you’re bothering others, or feel negative about yourself, or worse, think people really don’t give a shit?
If you just let go of your inhibitions and quit telling yourself you know what others are thinking or feeling, you’d be a lot happier. I’m telling you:
Stop. Just breathe. Stop thinking you’re bad / worthless / hurting others. You HURT others by thinking for them and by hurting yourself. You make yourself sick, you hurt yourself, you feel that pain of loneliness, but you know it’s all going to be okay if you just believe in that one thing, that you’re not really doing anything bad, and that you just need to take one day at a time. The only bad thing is claiming no one cares, and even then the people that DO care remind you that it’s okay to feel that way if you’re lonely.
Just. Don’t. Push. It. So. Far.
“But I’m impatient! I want ____ now! Are you sure ____ isn’t mad at me? Are you sure I don’t just cause people grief?!”
This ^ isn’t gunna help you. Just chill, have some faith, let others think for themselves!! From personal experience, I KNOW that feeling of loneliness, and I get on my own case a lot, claiming that I must have done something wrong to make them not wanna be around. But truth is? They’re usually just REALLY busy, REALLY not into it right now, AND HAVE THEIR OWN LIVES??
It bothers me so greatly when people automatically assume that I’m too busy for them. I can GET that you might be worried for good reasons, but just actually ask once and remember my (or anyone’s) answer, okay? I’m not too busy for you. I’m just busy. Period. I have work just like the whusband, and I have a life that I like to fulfill little things in each day.
If someone asks “I thought you were too busy for me” or “I’m annoying you aren’t I?”, my first answer should be the first and last time I have to say it unless I deliberately tell you that yeah, you’re annoying :/ IF you’re my friend and on my list, there’s no reason I would feel any of those feelings towards you, unless you actually TRIED to hurt my feelings... Like what?
TL;DR anxiety lesson; you’re not hurting anyone. It’s your life. It’s your day. As it is mine. Stop hurting yourself. It’ll be better not just for others but for you, to know that you’re confident in letting your friends think for themselves.
